Hot and Cold

I just received my 'bestest' birthday present this year!

I really really like it!

Now, please drool over it.... heheh...



Ok...that was the fun part for today.....

I know i haven't been updating my blog for quite some time.
Have been busy and also ran out of idea on what to blog.

Life seems normal, or maybe boring to others since nothing exciting is happening.

Perhaps today, i felt a bit different.
We have a meeting this morning.
I actually feel sad and sorry for myself.

No, i dont really know how to describe the feeling, actually.
It's all mixed up with all sorta feeling.

I felt a sudden sad, angry, anxious, panic, shocked, terrified.
And it was a horrible picture when people start to notice it from my face.
I was so bad in hiding my emotions when it comes to situation like this.
It's like so obvious....
But that is not the problem.

Yeah, i agreed. I have my own weaknesses.
My own worst nightmare.

But the thing that i hate the most is,
I'M SCARED.

Of everything, to move on, to try on.
I dont know what is holding me back.

I believed that everyone around me is sick of it already.

Ah, can i change?
Can i move on?

Can i do this?

Change me please!