Monday, May 31

The Tea Cup

I like this...
got it from an email...
Check out the Moral part especially...

There was a couple who used to go to England to shop
in the beautiful stores. They both liked antiques and
pottery and especially teacups. This was their
twenty-fifth wedding anniversary. One day in this
beautiful shop they saw a beautiful teacup. They said,
"May we see that? We've never seen one quite so
beautiful." As the lady handed it to them, suddenly
the teacup spoke.
"You don't understand," it said. "I haven't always
been a teacup. There was a time when I was red and I
was clay. My master took me and rolled me and patted
me over and over and I yelled out, 'Let me alone', but
he only smiled, 'Not yet.'
"Then I was placed on a spinning wheel," the teacup
said, "and suddenly I was spun around and around and
around. Stop it! I'm getting dizzy! I screamed. But
the master only nodded and said,'Not yet.'
Then he put me in the oven. I never felt such heat. I
wondered why he wanted to burn me, and I yelled and
knocked at the door. I could see him through the
opening and I could read his lips as he shook his
head, 'Not yet.'
Finally the door opened, he put me on the shelf, and I
began to cool. 'There, that's better', I said. And he
brushed and painted me all over. The fumes were
horrible. I thought I would gag. 'Stop it, stop it!' I
cried. He only nodded, 'Not yet.'
Then suddenly he put me back into the oven, not like
the first one. This was twice as hot and I knew I
would suffocate. I begged. I pleaded. I screamed. I
cried. All the time I could see him through the
opening nodding his head saying, 'Not yet.'
Then I knew there wasn't any hope. I would never make
it. I was ready to give up. But the door opened and he
took me out and placed me on the shelf. One hour later
he handed me a mirror and I couldn't believe it was
me. It's beautiful. I'm beautiful.'
'I want you to remember, then,' he said, 'I know it
hurts to be rolled and patted, but if I had left you
alone, you would have dried up. I know it made you
dizzy to spin around on the wheel, but if I had
stopped, you would have crumbled. I knew it hurt and
was hot and disagreeable in the oven, but if I hadn't
put you there, you would have cracked. I know the
fumes were bad when I brushed and painted you all
over, but if I hadn't done that, you never would have
hardened; you would not have had any colour in your
life. And if I hadn't put you back in that second
oven, you wouldn't survive for very long because the
hardness would not have held. Now you are a finished
product. You are what I had in mind when I first began
with you'.

MORAL: "Allah" knows what He's doing for all of us. He
is the potter, and we are His clay. He will mold us
and make us, so that we may be made into a flawless
piece of work to fulfill His good, pleasing, and
perfect will.

Friday, May 28

Currently Listening to: Karma ~ Cokelat

Tonite wanna watch HOT-TO-MAN!!~~
I've been wanting to watch that since last week,
trying hard enough to finishes up the assignment first befroe watching any movie...
but this is not a movie, this is the 8 disc japanese drama which Takashi Sorimachi in it...
so tonite gonna watch it until sunrise perhaps...
hope i wont sleep until i finished it...

The assignments done....gonna have to submit it by 5pm today..
just glad that we've done it...
eventhough it seems impossible at first...
but luckily, we just managed ...

Last nite was crazy, we went to Indro...
sempat lagi tu...ekeke...
shopping laaa...ape lagi kan...
got what i want....new jumper!~
and the rest of the nite, spend talking with Salwa, Mynn, Rab, and Helmi...
well...as usual, one topic brings to another...
macam2 gak laa...
tak ingat kul braper tertido...
continue with the assignments after subuh...and yupp! finally finished!




Wednesday, May 26

kutunggu jugakkkk....

Currently Listening to: Jauh ~ Cokelat

Been listening to lots of Indon' Songs lately....the 'jiwang' ones...
got influenced by the rest, Rabbit especially...
kinda get addicted to it....
started with Pupus....and now, Jauh....
jauh erk...salwa?? pupus taknak??
this song probably not in the top ten radio list now,
but....kinda catchy tune, and somehow just wanna relate it to our life ...
well, it depends on how u wanna relate it...
me...syyhh..it's a secret...
even i would'nt reveal it on my beloved blog...

especially for Rab...

"Hanya satu keyakinanku
Bintang kan bersinar
Menerpa hidupku
Bahagia kan datang ..oh oh
"


aku suka lirik ni....(ni bukan lirik lagu Jauh)

Monday, May 24

critical....

in the lab rite now....in the process to submit our assignment 4...
have'nt had much sleep until now....
while still working on the assignment late last nite, ter slept coz sgt penat....
probably only 3 hrs of sleep...and yupp...it is not enough...
hoping to have a very good nap after all this thing settled...
currently waiting for a reply from dunno who about the PDF file...
huh....cepat la...penat laa tunggu....
eventhough masih ader about 1 and a half hour before the due time....

uhh...c'mon...this is critical...
next thing...the INFS assignment , due this Friday...
and one last finale, assignment 5, which is due on the 4th June...
the last day before SWOTVAC....
i just can't focused on final with all these assignments due at the end of the week like this...

so glad to hear that the oral test gonna be next week, but the same day as the Ass 5 is due....how pathehtic...Lots of work....and not enough time....
have to reset back my time management...
it's gettin worse day by day....
wake up time pun tak menentu...camner ni??






Saturday, May 22

syhh...it's a secret...

Last nite, we girls made a suprise for Helmi, the Birthday boy...everyone's turning 20 this year...and always the question to ask is...what is the feeling to be 20??
Everyone probably had different answers...
some may says that it doesnt affect them much, some may says that it's kind of a responsibility matter coz u r turning to be an adult...and many more....
so it's actually depends on ourself, and also the surrounding....
and nowadays...when we r turning to be an adult...
we tend to talk about some serious stuff...
something deeper..
something that we need to dig more to get what we want to know ...
something that we have to think wisely before we speak..
not only wise, but
something that is more sensitive and quite personal...
something that sometimes we have to be open with it...

and now I realized something bout myself...
I'm not that 'open' kinda person.....
I always keep everything to myself...
I'm not ready to reveal everything about me to others...
I did'nt mean to be so secretive, but...it is just so plain natural me...
I would'nt tell people things that i dont want to...

am i trying to be misterious...
hrm...probably...

i dont need people to ask...
because if i want to tell, then I'll tell...
I dont mind if i was asked bout it...
but, like i said, if i can tell, then I'll tell...
if not...i'll become speechless...

then , one more thing bout me...
i'm shy....heheh...that's sound a bit stupid and geli rite...
sometimes , malu tak bertempat....
that's bad rite...
that's why , it's kinda hard for me to be open...

sometimes, u just have to keep somethin to only you yourself...
i'm comfy being myself..
and i would'nt do things that i'm unfamiliar with...
that is just not me...

but that does'nt mean that i'm against people who are not like me...
in fact, I am impressed with them,
coz they have the courage to be open...that i dont have one...

Utk masalah hati dan perasaan plak....
lagi laaa aku akan simpan sendirik...
well, nama pun 'hati dan perasaan',
so simpan jer laa dlm hati...

eventhough, kalo 'girls talk',
this topic mmg agak popular kan...
but, if it is a secret, then, it will always be a secret for me...
but, i like to listen to others...
and then, think bout it...it always gonna be only in my mind...
tapi...mende camni....kalo boleh , taknak layan sangat
sebab nanti kronik plak...
so...kena kontrol jiwa....hehe...
dont be too excited bout it...

Well, a girl is always a girl...
this is normal...
but depends on the person itself
how she wants it to be...
how to react...
mmg agak pelik aa kalo takde pikir psl this thing kan...

but...everyone is different in any way...
that's make them unique to others...
so...it is normal to be different...
kalo semua sama jer...
the world could'nt be as challenging as it should be...rite..

uuhh..panjang nyer entry hari ni...
adekah relevan, aku pun tak pasti...
but....just some thoughts from me today...
alkisah drpd semalam nyer "truth or dare' games....

so...cheers..
\(^o^)/


Thursday, May 20

what a day....

Currently Listening to: Pupus ~ Dewa 19
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

What a relieved...
Finally, all those scary thoughts bout goin for the tute on Thursday had ended today...
I should , no, i HAVE to thank Huda for what she had done for me...
Thank you so much, if not because of you I would'nt had done the presentation with success..ecece...
Thanx for sparing some time during lunch today and help me with it...
hehe...it was great...i did well, i guess...
I was the last one to do the presentation in that class apart from other student who did'nt come for it at all...
Dunno why today, Sam(the most briliant girl in our group) was a bit 'mengong' with the questions, and not able to do all the explanation as usual...that was a bit weird for her....she usually was the head of the group....yeah, probly she was not well today, i saw her getting out of the lecture hall after the first hour of lecture....but, nahhh nevermind...
i've got nothing against the tute for now....if not, Thursday will be the "hari yg amat membencikan" for me...
I'm happy now....rasa sangat ringan kepala ni....dun have to think bout it anymore...
probly have to think about the assignment 4 now...which is due on next Monday...
huhh....counting days...
and almost a week until next Friday for INFS big assignment...
well, it is not that big actually...it's only 20%..
but just because it is the ONE and ONLY assignment for that subject,
then it becomes the BIG assignment....

hehehe...it had been a while since i had a nap during the lecture...
dah lama dah tak praktikkan tabiat tido masa lecture nih...
well...really cannot tahan this morning, during COMP2500 2 hrs lecture...
The very first hour was so critical....
I felt asleep rite after the second page of the notes...
I wonder why....it should'nt be the seat coz it was not comfy at all...keras ade laa..
but still bleh tido....i reckon it should be the lighting....macam lampu tido yg kaler oren tuh...mana tak tido kalo camtu...
eventhough the seats cam tak best pun, lama2 aku makin turun jer...tinggal kepala jer bersandar kat kerusi tu...n then terus lelap...
when I woke up....dah nak break between the 2 hrs dah...
Rabbit cam brape kali gak laa menyiku...tp cam buat bodo jer...
sangat penat....

Esok dah Jumaat kan...
I bet, Saturday and Sunday nite will be spent mostly kat Lab memandangkan assignment kena antar on Monday....

Malam ni kena tido lambat sket...
settle kan projek INFS sket...

Tuesday, May 18

...cha..cha..cha....part 2

Okla...
biar laa kita buat translation utk the previous post...
bukanlaa tujuan nyer nak menunjuk ker aper tulis dlm jepun,
tapi memandangkan, pagi tu ader Test Jepun,
so sedikit sebanyak ade laa tempias dia sket lepas2 tu...
sekali tulis ader silap laa plak kan...
siap ader correction lagi tuh...
tapi takpe...blajar dari kesilapan k!~

camni....

Today, I have a test in the morning.
The test was difficult.
There were many things that I did'nt know.
Why?? dunno....
Yesterday night, we studied until 12:30 midnight...
I'm a bit tired.

It's cold today.
So, now, wanna have a rest...
see you...bye.

ps: do you understand?


itu jer sebenarnyer...
ayat yg mudah2 jer...
nak tulis yg hebat2, masih blajar...
nanti la...
week 13 ader oral test....
dia akan interview kita...
takut nyer,
so kena laa start praktis from now...
so nanti kita akan sambung lagi
sesi belajar bahasa jepun...
owarimasu....

ps: owarimasu maksud nyer 'dah habis'.





Monday, May 17

...cha..cha..cha....

kyoo wa, asa, tesuto o shimashita.
tesuto wa muzukashikatta desu.
watashi wa takusan wakarimasendeshita.
Dooshite?? Wakarimasen....
Kinoo, ban, watashi tachi wa, 12 ji han ni made benkyooshimashita.
Chotto tsukaremashita.

kyoo wa, totemo samui desune...
sore kara, ima wa, tsukaremasu X yasumimasu ne.
ja...mata...

ps: anata no wakarimasuka??



Saturday, May 15

Lama giler tak blogging, takde masa siott...
Baru lepas revised Hiragana, katakana n kanji tadi. Monday ni ader test.
Those stuff dlm text book blum cover lagi,
takpe, esok sehari lagi....buleh nyer Fazz!!~

Semalam, antar assignment 3 around 4:10 pm walaupun due time adelah pukul 5. Tapi dah tak sanggup duduk dlm lab dan mencari error yg tak jumpe2 ni. Tawakal jer laa....Otak dah tak bleh berfungsi....Asyik dok pikir mlm nyer nak kuar jer....hehee...

Malam after dinner pun kluar laa gi City.....lama benor dah tak ke sana..
sronok nyer....masuk kedai baju yg best2 nih....jaket n jumper tgh murah2....
Dapat sehelai jaket smlm, heh....ader bulu2 sket....tp simple n smart....ececee...
the point here is....sangat best shopping waktu winter....sangat sangat best....

Kluar semalam dgn Salwa, Denise dan Najwa....diorg actually ader meeting Umno dlm kul 8 lebey but start around 9 jugak la... terpaksa laa nyebok sama kat tempat meeting smalam....diorg meeting kat The Coffee House...so lepak situ sampai kul 10 lebey...
Tak balik kolej terus, gi lepak umah najwa plak.....makan makan cucok ikan bilis....yg hari tu punye....tp...sedap lagi...balik bilik dekat kul 1 gak laa...ingat nak blogging...hapekebende nyer...mata dah merah2....sempat upload gambar jer kat kat blog photo....gambar International Nite..tengok le korang....

International nite hari tu was quite a success....kata Salwa...walaupun simple....
Our performance of Dikir Barat tu mendapat tepukan yg gemuruh jugak laa kira....ntah la...but everyone was quite excited with it...(tp aku tau aa, aku ader buat silap , heheh)....or...
maybe sbb ader special appearance malam tuh...
nak tau saper??
Bait ngan Buzz....waa...giler macho dan comelll mereka mlm tu....dah laa pakai baju melayu...
n then bleh plak join last minute main tepuk gendang sepatutnye...(tapi kitorg pakai baldi jer)....asal boleh je kan....
hrm..nak jer tunjuk kat korg....tp...tak tau nak host kat ner movie file....
saper tau?? kalo nak host kat Ripway tu...bleh jer kalo kurang dari 5Mb, tp ni dah 7Mb la plak??
kalo sesape yg tau...bgtau erk....best ni...kena tunjuk kat korang....

d[^o^]b



Tuesday, May 11

Currently Listening to: The Reason ~ Hoobastank

Waa...I just realized this morning about the new blogger interface, sangat cool, very fresh and best. Semangat utk mem'blog' are comin back now!

Well, not really, coz, i'm still struggling with assignment 3 which is due on Friday. And there are lots of discussion meeting for INFS big assignment which is due another 2 weeks...

And the worst thing ever.....the one i really really hate every week....on Thursday...
aarrgghh....i just have to bear with it...

And another big thing, yupp...the International Nite on the 13th May. We Malaysians at Cromwell will be doing a performance....Dikir Barat! At least, better than buat tarian....coz....aarrghhh..i just dont wanna remember about the dance that we did last year...so embarassing when i get to think about it now....

I nearly forget that I have a Japn TEST on Monday next week.....shuut...i have not study anything yet, i forgot almost all the characters, and Kanji some more...yiaaarhhhh...i'm goin berserk!!~~

Lately, been listening to this song , The Reason by Hoobastank....

i'm not a perfect person, as many things i wish i didn't do
but i continue learning. i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know
i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you

i'm sorry that i hurt you , its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put you through, i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches your tears, thats why i need you to hear

i'm not a perfect person, i never meant to do those things to you
and so i have to say before i go, that i just want you to know

i've found a reason for me, to change who i used to be
a reason to start over new, and the reason is you
i've found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that i do, and that reason is you


I should stop this now....gotta go and finish up my assignments than I can go HU HA again with u guys..

Sunday, May 9

Currently Listening to: Dekat Padamu ~ Yusry

Latest pics here....

Had a trip to Byron Bay yesterday.....UQMSA nyer trip....
a nice one actually...only $20 jer.....dapat nasi lemak lagi...
nice scenery eventhough the weather are not that good.....
a bit of rain....rintik2 jer....

Well....of course...
kat sana ape lagi bleh wat....
mmg posing sakan aa semua....
dari beach sampai la ke lighthouse.....
subhanallah.......sangat sangat cantik tempat tuh....

actually....sgt laa tensen kalo pikir psl assignment 3 nih....due 14 may...
dah laa assignment 4 dah kuar.....

camner aa....
kena start laa kan....
ok....hari ni start....

ugh....International nite comin soon next week on the 13th...
Malaysian kena perform....
but then, still did'nt come up with any idea for it....
malas nyer....

orite...i'm done ere...
gud nite!!~