Friday, February 25

Hi hi bye bye

Currently listening: Mungkin Nanti ~ Peter Pan

The day has come.
The one that i wait for so long.
Gotta start a new one.
With new spirit and hope.
Continue struggling.
Eventhough how hard and rough it's gonna be.

Pray for me!
The best that HE can give.

Good bye Malaysia....

Welcome back to Brisbane...

Wednesday, February 23

penat n panas...

Countdown: 2 days to Brissy
Currently Listening to: Bintang Di Syurga ~ Peterpan
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

Have been in and out these few days, for final shopping , stuffs to bring back to Brissy.

Went out alone yesterday to Imbi or more specifically Times Square.
I just really really need to get a new sling bag. Finally got one after a dissapointment to find one which i was "usha"ing one in KLCC since my early week of holidays. My feet hurt so much...the place was too big for my small feet to wander around , but i had fun there, really like all the shops...one of my favourite spot for window shopping....it was still early went i got there, not crowded too, well, weekdays rite...
So, my mission completed.

Then, rite after getting the bag, i went to KLCC to meet Teh. My old skoolmate. Hav'nt met her since these few years, but we still contact each other via sms, email and messenger. While waiting for her to arrived, i had my eye on these lots of Malay Novels at Kinokuniya. There were so many choices, which i only have to choose one! And that was really difficult for me to make a decision. Each of it has it's own promising story which i just dont know which one to buy. Finally, I've made up my mind and randomly chose "Sesuci Cinta" by Aina Emir. I haven't read it yet, gonna save it for my morning flight back to Brisbane. But i've heard that it was a good one, hopefully yeah! Had lunch with Teh at Burger King and chatted for just an hour because i have to go back by 4 o'clock.

Overall, it was an exciting day for me....I've been train-hopping from LRT Taman Bahagia to KL Central, and then took monorail to Imbi and then went back to KL Sentral then straight to KLCC...and from KLCC back to Tmn Bahagia again....fuhhh...

at night...started collecting all the stuff and put it at one point.All the clothes, toilettries, books gadgets and not forgetting flight ticket and passport. But i was so tired, i fall asleep while folding my clothes to put into the bag.

Today....continued with the packing...

i realized that i didn't really bring that much...just a small luggage and one hand luggage where i put all the stuff that i need to declare(if i have to though...)

Before this, i kept thinking that the luggage might be overloaded, but yet, it still got some extra space. I'm not gonna think of what to bring some more to fill in the place. Coz, actually there are so much more....lagi fikir, lagi banyak....so...it's a big no-no....anyway, i've never yet to reached the overload kg's since my first flight....

Went to OU in the morning with mama and abah for the last shopping, as what mama said.
But, it turned out that Jusco was closed for a day to do their stock-taking. But nevermind....we still have to rushed back home coz mama got a call from Nuyu to pick her up from school coz she felt sick.

Later in the evening, went to Giant Mall with mama. Bought some food stuff, instant paste , perencah2 adabi dan maggi...

Actually, i was a bit lazy to go out at that time. It was so hot! Panas sampai boleh pening kepala.....serious...

penat la.....

I'm really grateful to my mum... she 's the one who suggested me to buy this, buy that...
if not , i wouldnt dare to ask for all those things.

Firstly , it's all about money rite... i dont mind spending my money on my stuff, but spending their money for my stuff, makes me felt guilty. At least when i'm using my own money, i will know how much should i spend and i will think really hard whether it's necessary or not.

I just can't stand it when they keep on bringing up all those thing that they bought for me....see...that's what i dont like...kalo nak belikan, beli, taknak belikan, sudah....
i dont ask for it, but if i really really want it, then i'll ask.

I dont wanna waste their money....and i dont wanna make they think that i'm wasting their money....faham tak... it's all about the money....eventhough money doesnt give you happiness, but somehow in some circumstances, it does bring happiness. And i dont wanna be ungrateful to what they had done....

entahla.....

Sunday, February 20

Family Gath lagi...

Semalam ader buat makan-makan special utk family especially belah abah ramai yg datang. Sempena aku nak balik Brisbane dan juga merapatkan lagi silaturahim antara keluarga...ehehe...
Menu utama adelah nasi Bukhari Daging yang Mak Long buat, pastu Dalca yang Mak Teh buat, dan tak lupa juga Ayam Bakar Special yg mama buat. Desert pula ader 2 jenis Bubur Asyuraa, yg Mak Tam dan MakNgah buat. Oh lupa lak....ader ayam goreng berempah yg sgt special sbb aku yg goreng tetapi sedey sekalik, blum sempat aku rasa telah abes dilahap oleh kezen2 ku yg kelaparan....takpe....takpe...bagi chance....

Kesimpulannya....adelah sangat kenyang....sehingga ketiduran yg melenakan selepas itu....

Ni ader gamba2 sket utk menggambarkan keadaan di majlis yg sederhana tetapi meriah itu....sekian...
Nasi Bukhari daging, ayam bakar special ngan dalca...
puding custard ader....bubur asyura pun ader...
makan lagi...sila...sila...
Mak long , mak tam, pak tam, mak teh pun ader
kezen-kezen yg datang...
ni persidangan bapak-bapak pulak
budak-budak pun ramai

Thursday, February 17

aku lari rupanyer....

Baru tersedar sesuatu hari nih..
Tgh bersembang dengan seorang kawan di telefon tentang seorang lagi kawan yg tengah menghadapi masalah. Hendak menolong tapi tak tau camner.
Nasihat yg aku bagi adelah, " Lupakan jer prob ko kat mesia "

Erk....
bak kata orang "Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yg memikul"
Macam senang la sangat nak lupakan masalah.
bak kata orang lagi, "Cakap senang, nak buat susah, tau tak??!!~"

Baru la aku tersedar, aku nih selalu lari dari masalah....
bukan nak selesaikan masalah....

contoh yg paling besar dalam idop aku....
walaupun dah berlaku hampir 3 thn yg lalu....
aku masih ingat sampai skrg dan masih lagi aku taknak selesaikan....

mungkin ramai dah tau...mungkin ader jugak yg tak tau...
pasal ape lagi....
pasal accident tu laa...

Accident tu telah menyebabkan aku fobia...takut nak memandu...
serious...
walaupun accident tu tak la sehebat mana...
tapi impact dia besar giler pada aku...
dan sehingga sekarang aku masih lagi 'drive-0-phobic' (org panggil ni ker?? sukati aku je!)
aku mmg tak drive dah sejak lepas2 accident tuh...

sedey gak...
license yg aku dapat abes2 SPM tu terbiar jer...
member yg amik license bersama2 semua dah kehulu ke hilir ngan kete masing2...
bak kata mama "angah dah dapat P, tapi tak pi pi lagi"

tapi mungkin ader hikmah di sebalik setiap kejadian tuh...
sebab...
selepas accident tuh, hati aku terbukak untuk terima offer belajar oversea.
Hati aku mmg berbelah bagi masa tuh....
nak terima...tak nak terima...
akhirnya , aku terima jer atas sebab nak lupakan kejadian yg berlaku tuh...

Tu la yang aku kata, aku melarikan diri drpd masalah....tak nak selesaikan...
tapi mmg betul laa... selagi tak selesai....memang tak tenteram....
itu mmg satu masalah yg aku tatau biler penghujung nyer...
tapi aku sedar, aku sendiri tak berusaha untuk mengatasinye, mana laaa mende ni nak selesai...
kan??

Dan bila aku dah belajar kat Brisbane ni, aku makin suka pulak.
Jadik tak silap juga pilihan aku kan...
Memang setiap kejadian tu ader permulaan nya,
dan setiap yg bermula tu mesti ader pengakhirannya jugak...
habisnyer studi aku kat Ozy nanti....
aku kena laa berdepan kembali dgn masalah aku tuh....
aku mesti akhir kan jugak!

Doakan aku yer kawan2....

Tuesday, February 15

Brissy Gath again...

Countdown: 11 days to Brissy!

Can't believe it myself....I have less than 2 weeks now to go back to Brissy.

Yesterday was fun!
We had a Brissy Gath again in KLCC.
Met Kimah and had lunch with her before her medical check up at the Twin Tower Medical Centre. Never meet her yet since she came back after her graduation last December.
Congratz ya Kimah! Everything works really fine....u gonna be one of the new young Executives at Petronas Carigali! Well done.... new phase in your life rite! But Insya Allah u'll manage! I will always pray all the BEST for you...

Met the rest of the girls while waiting for Kimah. First to come was Leen! Then Salwa, then Denise, then Ili and not forgetting Mas!!~

It's been awhile for us not to sit and talk together rite...just like before...
There we were, at the waiting place in the Medical Centre ....talked about almost everything...keeping up again with all the latest "news"...

If we are not seeing each other again after this...
Insya Allah, we'll meet again ...
in Brissy....
the place to be....heheh...

Saturday, February 12

Kenapa...mengapa...??

Dapat dari blog seseorang....mungkin buleh dijadikan renungan utk semua dan juga diri saya sendiri...selalu juga persoalan begini bermain di fikiran walaupun kerapkali cuba menghalang diri dari berfikir sedemikian....

KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?"
Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

RASA FRUST?
"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
-Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk" -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ..
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 111

KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

AKU DAH TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI!!!!!
"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa drp rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."
-Surah Yusuf ayat 12

Friday, February 11

Salam Maal Hijrah

Dunia ini umpama lautan yg luas.
Kita adalah kapal yg belayar di lautan,
yang telah banyak kapal karam di dalamnya.
Andai muatan kita adalah iman,
dan layarnya taqwa,
nescaya kita akan terselamat daripada
tersesat di dunia ini.

Janganlah berputus asa.
Tetapi kalau anda sampai berputus asa,
berjuanglah terus meskipun dalam keadaan berputus asa.

Doa memberikan kekuatan kepada yg lemah,
membuatkan orang yg tak percaya menjadi percaya,
memberikan kebaranian kepada org yg ketakutan.

Kalau kita dapat membuka dan menutup telinga dgn mudah ,
sebagaimana menutup dan membuka mata,
pasti kita akan terhindar dari mendengar dan melihat kebatilan.

Hidup tanpa pegangan umpama buih sabun,
bila-bila saja ia akan pecah.

Monday, February 7

renungan....

Sedikit renungan yg aku rasa cam best...

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan itu....
janganlah sesekali kamu lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu sahaja....
kerana ia akan sakit oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu
dan mungkin ia akan menderita selagi ia masih hidup

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...
setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah kamu menjaga hatinya....
janganlah sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya begitu sahaja....
keranadia akan terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin tidak dapat melupakan segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu....

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya
dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu....
Apabila sekali ia retak....
tentu sukar untuk kamu menampalnya semula....
akhirnya ia dibuang....
pun begitu jika kamu cuba membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh digunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang terima lah seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya
dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....
anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan kesilapan
bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya....
akhirnya kamu kecewa meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya
boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan hingga ke akhirnya...

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu.
Mengenyangkan.
Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.
Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang kamu pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu.
Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu.
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba membandingkannya dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan kehilangannya apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan menyesal.....

Sunday, February 6

Countdown: 20 days to Brissy...

I called Rabbit last nite. And we chatted for an hour... Lama giler tak criter criti...
Lotsa stories to share....rite... rindu pd rabit, rindu pada brissy....rindu pd sisters kat brissy...
rindu komputer ku, rindu pada uni....

Some stuffs that i need to find to bring back to Brissy :
  • Wireless Keyboard and Mouse (murah sket beli kat mesia)
  • portable external hard drive USB 2.0
  • a pair of sandal (paling susah nak carik yg berkenan)
  • more SD cards
  • etc..etc... (aper lagik yer?)

nearest shot
pelamin bersanding
kak yanti and hubby

Wednesday, February 2

All about LOVE....

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions. It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic! Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends! I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you. I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do! Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, I get what I want. Then I realized it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me. And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him/her and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free. "How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?" Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else. Food for thought, think of this: Have you really cared for someone more than you expected? Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name? Will you? It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits. When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but Investing. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart... Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind. Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season. Love them like a river because a river flows forever. Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all. Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance. Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.
Thus, the greatest LOVE is actually the LOVE to the ALMIGHTY which is for ETERNITY .

Tuesday, February 1