Tuesday, December 28

di ambang thn baru

Lama tak update....
dah sebulan lebey rupanyer aku kat sini....
masa berlalu cepat sekali...
kenangan beberapa hari lepas masih di hati...
masih terasa kemanisan ukhuwwah....
alhamdulillah...
jumpa lebey ramai orang....
jumpa yg mana dah lama tak jumpa....
moga kita semua bergerak di atas jalan yg sama....

rasa terharu....
rasanye mereka sangat bertuah...
sebelum fly dah mendapat sedikit cahaya...
yang boleh membimbing mereka...
Insya Allah.....semoga mereka mendapat cahaya yg berterusan di sana...

tak sangka kan...
dalam masa beberapa hari....
tak sampai seminggu pun....
rasa cam kenal dah lama....
itulah tanda ukhuwah berdasarkan akidah yg satu...

Esok nak ke Kedah....
balik melawat atuk kat Kulim....
setelah lama tak balik ke sana....
blog ni akan kembali sepi buat sementara...

Tahun baru bakal menjelma...
rasa cam banyak plak bala menimpa...
tsunami, gempa bumi....
adekah petanda bala oleh Allah...
ramai masih tak sedar kan....??
Wallah hu a'lam.....

Thursday, December 16

I like the way I feel

Currently Listening to: Pieces of Me ~ Jessica Simpson

One update a week....orite la tu kan....

Selamat Pengantin Baru kepada Aishah and Farid...Semoga berbahagia hingga ke akhir hayat...bukan hingga ke anak cucu jer... heheh... SELAMAT HONEYMOON!!~
I felt really happy for them at that day. bahagia sungguh mereka....

Macam tak percaya jer...for me, they were the first among all my friends yg dah kahwin.
And the fact that i know both of them, lagi laa seronok melihat diorg akhirnya selamat diijabkabulkan.
Tak sangka kan, time really flies so fast. Usia pun dah meningkat dewasa...bayangkan laa...dulu gi tgk sedara kawin, skrg gi tgk member kawin, lepas2 ni kita plak ker....haaa....

Baru2 ni ader berdebat ngan adik-adik kat umah. Biasa laa kalo perempuan kan....topik ni cam hangat sket aa...
hehe...adik2 pun skrg tgh meningkat remaja....rasanyer diorg ni pun dah faham la kan...
yg si adik ni mempersoalkan psl budaya bercouple nih.
And then dok sibuk la tanya "angah, ko ni biler nak ader boyfren??".
Yes...one of the soalan yg aku paling TAK suka ditanya....
maybe dulu waktu skolah , slalu terfikir yg bila masuk uni baru nak carik boyfren.
Masa tu mmg aa, naif lagik. Aku sendiri nak tergelak kalo teringat balik zaman skola dolu2 tuh...hahha...
But now, kita pun dah open minded sket.
And then camner tah, adik aku ni buat conclusion sendiri yg aku ni mengelak daripada nak carik boyfren. Aku pun mengamuk aaa (eh takde aa mengamuk), bengang jer. aku cakap aa yg kalo bleh terus kawin jer lagi best. Ha...terkejut dia....!!~
Dia cam tak setuju kalo terus jer kahwin tanpa berkenal2an. And tempoh berkenal2an bg dia kat sini adelah masa bercouple tu laa...
Erm...aku terangkan laa kat sini, yg masa bercouple tuh, anything can happen, bleh menggalakkkan maksiat laa...semua la kan...
and dia pun pandai gak.... dia pun kata aa...nak bercouple pun kena laa tau batas2 semua...takkan aa takleh nak fikir....takkan nak buat bende2 yg tak elok...
ok this part...aku cam lega aa, sbb dia tau aa aper batas2 semua tuh....
tapi realiti hidup zaman skrg la kan...macam2 dah berlaku...semua org cam dah tak boleh dipercayai...pandai2 la nak hidup kan...
bermacam2 perumpamaan aku bgtau kat dia, especially pasal perempuan la...
yg perempuan ni sgt la berharga, and kena jaga diri sentiasa...
yg adik aku ni plak still dengan pendirian dia...tapi dia cam terima jer la aper yg aku cuba sampaikan kat dia....terfikir gak kut...heheh..
skali skala cerita ngan bebudak ni pasal menda2 ni, sronok gak...hahha...

A day after the wedding, pegi laa Majlis Hari Raya AUSIS, dapat la berjumpa k syimah. Tak sempat jumpa masa kenduri Ecah. Lama tak jumpa since diorg gi Brisbane for Abg Amir's convo. Dapat la jugak bertemu ngan member lama yg jumpa masa Winter gath 2003. Member baru pun ader.

Hari2 seterusnya aku banyak lepak kat umah jer. Buat aper2 yg patut.
Geram dgn komputer yg biler aku scan, banyak giler spyware rupanyer. Sampai slow jadiknyer komputer nih.
Alhamduliilah, skrg dah rasa 'ringan' sket lepas banyak kali dah scan n destroy semua problem2 tuh.

Semalam seharian temankan tokmak ader operation mata kat Hospital Mata Tun Hussein Onn. Tukar shift ngan mama waktu malam. Penat jugak dok menuggu jer. Tokmak pun dah ok hari ni lepas keluar td. Alhamdulillah....

Petang nye keluar ngan famili pergi Sogo. Penat berjalan tak beli aper pun.
Biasa laa aku time Sale camni kan, memang berniat nak carik kasut.
Tapi tau jer la, payah btul nak carik yg berkenan.
Dalam banyak2 kasut tuh, takde satu pun yg betul2 berkenan.
Ei, kena buat kasut sendiri ler aku nih.

Mintak maaf la banyak2 kalo aku tak update selalu k! Aku pun malas gak rasa(tensen pc slow).
Aku tgh nak belajar Flash ni ngan adik aku. Asyik dok bertangguh jer. Macam2 benda aku plan nak buat. Insya allah aku buat sket2 sebelum balik.

Lepas ni, dah takde chance nak kluar ngan member dah.
Salwa, Mynn n Mas dah start Practical kat KL. Nanti bebiler kiter lunch sesama k!
Yg lain aku tatau aper citer.
Aku baru jer bercadang utk menghabiskan masa cuti aku (walaupun tak buat prac) dgn bermanfaat....walaupun aku tak kluar rumah sgt...cuba buat something berfaedah sket...
hehhe..baca buku ker...(still ingat ader homework kan??!!~)

Ok la ....
more updates to come after this..
Later k!!~




Wednesday, December 8

update 2

Currently Listening to: Pemuja Rahasia ~ Sheila on 7
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

slow internet connection.....made me so the malas one to update...sorry fellas.

But, since i've got nothin to do now and after a few minutes waiting for the screen to appear, i should'nt just let all my effort to go this far by just leaving u guys with nothin but an update.

Everyday now would probably be the same.
So dont really expect me to came up with a very exciting stories.
Eventho sometimes life can be so interesting....but not everyday for me.

Ok....
Firstly...i really really like to announce this.
After almost 2 years ignoring my ability of driving a car, and also having a valid Driving license, i've finally overcome my fear or phobia (to be more specific). But, it's not actually an overcome. It's more like trying again after leaving it all behind(only some bad memories remain). I managed to drive around (itupun kat Parking lot SS7). Still trying to familiarize myself with the car, to feel the car like my instructor aka abah said. I admit that i'm still lack of confidence. And i need more time. Plz laa....pushing and forcing wont make me any good. Let it come naturally.....i just dont wanna make it worst....eventhough a new car does'nt make me excited to drive....

Sometimes i need people to understand me. I hope i know what i'm doin. If i can satisfied with what i've achieved now, can others do that too?
I dont wanna know bout others, it's mine that i'm worried the most. I've tried my best, yet if it is still not good, what i can do next is try harder. But sometimes, bear in mind that not everything which is good() is the best for you. Whatever it is, God ask us to berusaha....after all it's Him who gonna decide what happened next! Always be grateful to what he gave us. I know sometimes i always feel sorry for myself but i know everything that happened will come with a hikmah. It's just that sometimes we are too busy worrying about stuff that is not under our control.

Had'nt heard anything yet on my Industrial training application. Should i worry bout it? Nahh....it's not even a uni requirement. Good luck to others....

One of My beloved friends getting married end of the week. Feel happy for her. Selamat Pengantin Baru Ecah!!~

Thanx to Salwa...we went out together almost all the time rite... thanx for the companion....kluar lagi ya nanti!

To Rabbit, miss u laaa!!~ Lama tak dgr ko bising2... Lama tak burak2 kan...ko mesti banyak citer best kan...anything best update me k!!~

Message especially for Miss Bint al-Huda, i dunno why i can't view your blog. Missed all those meaningful entries, camner erk?? Is it only me or yg lain pun camtu gak??

Also to ICesoul....same problem...what happen erk?? It says the page cannot be displayed....

Erm...Last thing for today's entry,
Happy Graduation for Hakimah!!~
and also fella graduates!!~


Monday, November 29

update!

Waahh...dah brape kali aku delete aper yg aku taip nih...
Seriously, i've got no mood to blog.
Everytime bukak jer page nih, rasa cam nak say something, but after that cam blur tatau nak tulis aper.

This few days, asyik berjalan jer.
Mula2 gi ikut Along register kat Uitm Melaka.
Pastu, gi gathering Aussie-Nz kat Klang.
Pastu gi kenduri k fizah kat Pahang.
Hari ni patutnyer ikut balik Kedah, tapi disebabkan on the way back nanti nak jemput Achik balik from Tronoh, maka passsenger Naza terpaksa dikurangkan. Konon nyer barang2 Achik bawak balik banyak giler. Lagipun nanti Tokmak ngan Tokpah nak ikut mai KL plak. Sekarang tinggal aku ngan nuyu kat umah. Aku pun tak rasa nak ikut pun...cam nak lepak umah jer.

Heh, abah dah jadik cam fulltime driver....sejak dok umah jer ni, rasa cam everyday is Sunday sebab abah ader.
Mama biasalaa leteran setiap hari, adoi laaaa cam nak pecah telinga...

Balik ni dah makan macam2 la jugak...tapi aku takde la plak rasa cam nak makan sangat. Kalo org beli aku makan.

Reaksi famili dan member bila first time jumpa setelah sekian lama tak nampak adelah seperti:
  • aku dah gelap (mungkin betul, sunburn masa raya harituh tak ilang lagik),
  • aku dah tembam lagik (mungkin betul jugak, tapi aku rasa aku maintain jer...huhuh),
  • aku cam diam sgt (aku segan + malu2 kucin time jumpa member harituh),
  • aku cam banyak ckp (mama kata aku banayk mulut balik kali ni)
Perubahan:
  • bilik kitorg dah tukar (kasi balik bilik yg besar kat abah ngan mama)
  • roundabout kat depan tu dah takde
  • ader sebijik kete Atoz baru kat umah
  • sedara mara (esp yg lelaki) semua dah ensem dan mantap(muahaha!)

Persamaan:
  • along, dan nuyu masih tembam
  • achik bertambah tembam
  • kucing2 di rumah cam tak membesar (sama jer time aku gi Brisbane harituh)
  • member2 skool still maintain lawak cam dulu
Result dah kuar kan....aku sangat sangat bersyukur, Alhamdulillah!
Sgt cuak masa nak tgk result, menjerit2 di depan pc.

Korg....kalo aku nak carik keje kan, keje aper yer??
Sangap dok umah tak buat aper.....
bagi la idea.
Bapak aku suruh masuk kelas programming lagik...waaa!!! aper citer! nak termuntah dah ni...

k la...chiowww!!~







Tuesday, November 16

examfitri di perantauan...

Akhirnye, aku dah rasa jugak camner raya di perantauan.
Camner?
Camni lah....
Mungkin lain org lain rasa nyer.
Bagi aku, walaupun tanpa parents, adik beradik, datuk, nenek, sedara mare semua...
raya tetap ade lah raya.
Raya ngan member2 pun best jugak.
Tapi rasa cam 'something missing' tu tetap ader kan..
aku sukati jer call mama pakai hp hari raya harituh, sbb rasa cam tak puas plak raya tak dengar suara diorg. Sempat la bermaaf-maafan dlm tepon jer. Mula2 rasa nak mintak maaf pakai sms jer, tapi rasa tak 'appropriate', cam takde feeling jer.
Aku ni takdela sensitip sangat kan, sbb takde rasa sedey ker syahdu ker pd pagi raya...cuma lain sket laa sambutan raya drpd kat Mesia.
Tapi masih gembira sebab raya. Bukan kah hari raya hari bergembira....
Menjamu selera pun termasuk dlm agenda....sini pun ader rumah terbuka jugak...
walaupun tak semeriah mesia, rendang ade, sate pun ade...heheh..

Beraya beraya jugak, tapi otak still pikir exam.
Semalam abes satu lagi paper.
Lagi 2 paper menanti di akhir minggu nih.

Agaknye sbb ni la rasa cam tak raya sangat kan...sbb exam...
lepas raya pertama, kena sambung studi balik.
Takpe la....skali skala jer. (next year pun... :p)



Friday, November 12

Selamat Hari Raya





Kad raya utk semua....
yang dah balik Mesia, belum balik, akan balik dan tak balik....

Thursday, November 11

retros version 1.2

That's the theme for my new skin.
Inspired by my Skechers Retros shoe box.
A spontaneous idea while looking at all the boxes and that i just took out from the wardrobe.
And without any doubt, i just did it.
I'm still sticking to the old avril theme but with a new fresh and vibrant colour.
Made a few adjustment using Photoshops, and wallaaa....here it is.

Sorry if i made your eyes 'berpinar' with the previous orange colour. I just changed to this a-bit-soft orange after a few complaints from others.

I just got an sms from my mum.
They were already in Tok Mak's house at Sg Petani.
And tommorow's Abah's 55th birthday.
So officially, he's retiring.
I feel sad....dunno why...

Anyway .... it's almost at the end of Ramadhan...
Should we feel sad coz it's almost gone...
or...
should we be happy for the victory of the battle of 'melawan hawa nafsu'....
hrmm...






Tuesday, November 9

And for the third time of the day....

Alhamdulillah...i passed the prac exam 3!

And for the first time in my life experiencing hailstone....
hujan ais....ade petanda ape2 kah?
i still can feel the hailstone dropped on my head while i was running to Axon bldg just now.
Nothing more i can say.....Subhanallah....


so much for my carefulness...

Quoting back what i'd blogged this morning....
"And today , one more prac exam to be done. I'll do my best and be more careful this time, gotta read all the instructions really well first."

So much for my carefulness, i just missed my prac session which I was supposed to take at 11 am. I had mistakenly thought that my session is at 1 pm.

Cuak! That was just so careless of me!!! Feel like banging my head on the screen....

But, everything is fine now. I went to see the lecturer and explained to him everything . He understood my situation and i get to go to the 2 pm session.

So here i am at the lab, blogging my carelessness story while waiting for the prac exam which is at 2 PM. Fiuhhhh.....



Exam mode II

One paper done yesterday. It was okay. I managed to answer all the question till the last clock ticking. It was almost the same as the past previous years paper. Felt really relieved that i've done one now. Eventhough hours before that i was a bit tensed because the exam was on the first day. But now, i felt glad that it was on the first day. Now i can stay focus on other comin subjects.

I came across something pelik yesterday while waiting for the people to collect my answer sheet at the exam hall. Well, it was about this one guy. I knew him. He was in my tutorial class last semester. And hell yeah he is really smart, always do all the talking in class. But, something might had happened to him during the exam. He probably had'nt have enough time. He was still answering the question when the clock reached the end of time. He begged the the people who collect the answer sheet for extra time and obviously they did'nt allowed him. I felt really sorry for him but at the same time i felt weird...what had happened to him?? It was'nt really like him at all to do that. It was just so sad. He probably went blank in the middle of the exam, and didn't aware of the time. Well that really shows that , anything can happened to you during the exam, and to anyone. People who really prepared can suddenly forgot everything that they studied before, and vice versa, people who did'nt really prepared will suddenly "mendapat ilham" in the exam hall...

I pray to Him that hopefully i won't be like that.
"Ya Allah, ya Tuhanku, lapangkanlah dadaku, tenangkanlah fikiranku dan mudahkanlah segala urusanku"

Thank God, i passed the 2nd prac exam which i'd took twice for the supplementary. I am so grateful to Him that i just felt like crying after the tutor marked 'PASS' on my prac paper. Seriously all this prac supplementary thing really are messing with my mind. It's all because of the requirement to pass the course is you have to pass all three prac exam if not, you just fail. Then, what's the point of having all the assignment, project , class test and final exam when the most important thing that will determine whether you pass the course or not is the prac exams??? Yeah, probably other assessment than prac exam will determine the grade you will be getting like a 7, 6 or 5.... (ape aku buat ni, tanya soklan, jawab sendiri plak...hehe....baru terpikir la...)

And today , one more prac exam to be done. I'll do my best and be more careful this time, gotta read all the instructions really well first.

My next big paper will be on the 15th Nov. So, i guess have to really concentrate on that this week.

Ramadhan is nearly at the end. Teruskan berdoa kepada Allah. Bulan ni doa2 dimakbulkan Allah.
Thanx mum for reminding me!~ And thanks a bunch for really supporting me and giving me the spirit to teruskan berjuang. Insya Allah, I'll do my best.

To my frens....teruskan juang...teruskan...teruskan.....gambatte ne!~




Sunday, November 7

Hari ni hujan dan esok exam....

Rasanyer dah banyak kali aku menjerit di dalam bilik ni sorg2.
Terasa ke"kecut"an di dlm perut...
esok la hari nyer....
awal pagi pukul 8 pulak tuh....
takut pulak kalo tak terbangun...
hari ni pun konon merancang utk bangun kul 8 tetapi, disebabkan suasana yg menghujan, mendung dan berangin sejuk nih....maka terbabas jugak sampai kul 11...
dan sesungguhnya aku tak suka bangun lambat.....
menyesal pulak kerana tertido lebey....
time is running out....
ah...macam tak pnah amik exam jer aku nih....
walhal dah berpuluh kali melalui nyer.....
ape yg menyebabkan aku takut pun aku tatau....
tak cukup besedia ker?
kalo nak tunggu bersedia, mmg aku rasa sampai bile pun takkan cukup...
Baik tak yah pikir banyak....
Esok buat jer sebaik mungkin...
dan seterusnyer....tawakal....

To all my fella friends
Good Luck with Exams!
Do your best!



Thursday, November 4

Excited eh...

Review of last nite iftar.
Nandos was great as well as Popiah, onde2 and Choc Puff.
But the most awaited agenda was "the roomies".
Everyone got to know whose their roomies for next year in CS.
Surprising eh..
not for me...i mean , surprised la jugak....
I got Rabbit (again!~) as my roomie. We are so "cannot live without each other...hehhe"
And Mas and Najwa as 'the osmet'.
Together next year...I really cant imagine how's it gonna be.
The fact that it was a random selection left us wondering why.
But surely it's not a problem for the girls. Wonder how it's gonna be for the boys.

Next year gonna be really fun...eventho i still cant imagine how fun will it be livin in the house together. Food provided, allowance unchanged. I believe we can save more money next year.
I dont think we will spend more time at home , coz it's final year. Mostly at the lab, i supposed.

Anyway, am still feeling excited....we'll be livin in a house, man! No more the selebets college students.

Things to do: Start packing , start packing and start packing.....
I wonder when....
17 days before goin back to KL. Just got my ticket flights yeserday....
Dunno wuts my feeling...
I am so worried with the exam thing make me so not keen to go back...
I really really have to study hard than thinking bout this...
Not really studying as mad as others....

It's almost at the end of Ramadhan....about 9 days to go...
Can't believe it....soon we will be celebrating Eid...still not believing myself that I'm celebrating it here with friends.

One more thing...i almost forgot that, next year will be the final year for me...have this feeling that I'm not ready yet....just not prepared for it.
Next year gonna be a tough one!
Waaaaaaaaaaaa(screaming inside again!)!!!~~

Tuesday, November 2

Exam mode

Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com
Countdown exam! : 6 days!~

Exam is just around the corner. 6 more days to go for the first paper.

Upcoming event:
PQSA scholars Iftar
Wednesday 2nd Nov
6 pm SCR Cromwell College

Have you vote for Nandos?? Go vote for it at the Yahoogroup.

All Pet students are compulsary to attend.

After Iftar we will be having some 'serious' discussion on accommodation and some other things.










Monday, November 1

setelah sekian lama menyepi....

jeng..jeng...jeng...

gambar baru:

sila klik sini!

itu jer....

Monday, October 25

panas kan??

Countdown exam week + swotvac : 14 The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com days

mmg panas....sampai ke malam terasa kebahangan nyer...fiuuhh...
dlm bilik pun panas...ape citer...
kipas pasang sampai max cam nak terbang jer rasa...
pun masih panas...
cam cacing mengelupur kepanasan aku...
every 30 mins nak kena pegi refresh muka ngan air sejuks....
summer cemaner yer nanti....
mesia pun tak panas camni....

aku nak me'laundry' nih...
banyak btul baju tak berbasuh lagik....
malasnyer, coins pun takde ...
aku kena buat sesuatu...
tau aper aku buat...
aku telah mengumpulkan semua 5cent yg aku jumpa dlm bilik
dan menukar nyer di vending machine...utk mendapatkan coins 20cent...
ader la dlm 2 dolar aku dapat...
pandai tak aku??
aku cuba nak dptkan 1 dolar tapi tak bleh...dia bg 50cents 2x...cess...

tapi masalahnyer skrg...20 cent coins tu utk dryer lepas aa...
tapi still...1 dolar coin diperlukan utk washing machine...
dan melihat kpd baju2 yg blum berbasuh dlm simpanan aku nih..
perlu dlm 3 dolar....
betapa banyak minggu nyer aku skip melaundry....iniler padah nyer...

adekah perlu tukar di ofis?
panas....malas nak kuar!!~

****************************************************
anyway!
ucapan istimewa
Selamat Harijadi to Nadia aka Denise
Semalam dalam kul 12.30 tgh mlm,
kami telah berjalan naik dan turun bukit ke rumah denise dan
menyanyikan lagu besday spesel utk dia...
dan berjaya membuatkan dia nangis!~
terharu nyerr.....huhuh...
Wish u all the best girl!~


Sunday, October 24

rezeki aah...

Our weekly event di bulan Ramadhan.
Berbuka puasa di masjid.
Hari pertama puasa hari tuh berbuka di Masjid Kurraby. Berbuka puasa beramai2 mmg sgt seronok.
Kali kedua , semalam di Masjid Lutwhyce. Alhamdulillah, makanan yg disediakan best giler, takde dapat kat Cromwell laa kiranyer. Memang rezeki kitorg.
Next week Insya Allah, kat masjid Gold Coast pulak....masih dlm planning...

Petang semalam ader Bazaar Ramadhan. Siapa sangka ader jugak bazaar ramadhan kat sini kan?
Ader nasi ayam, nasi beryani, laksa, popiah, cheesecake pun ader....caya laa...dapat sambutan ramai plak tuh...mostly from malaysians, singaporeans, bruneians....ramai aaa...
Sempat beli nasi ayam utk sahur....mak aih kenyang.....

Kawan2, jom aa tangkap gambar berlatarbelakangkan purple jacaranda, nak buat tema baru utk tukar skin blog.... ramai dah tukar skin, nak jugak!
Heh, masih ader kah masa nak buat template baru nih?

due 29th Oct
COMP2500 Assignment 5 (dah start skrg)
COMP2302 Project (dah start jugak!)

Belajar dari kesilapan...start assignment awal...takut kelam kabut terkial2 nak siapkan....
exam pun nak dekat....berusaha fazz....jgn tak berusaha....

Ade sesaper nak masukkan article utk newsletter PQSA?
sila2 lah rajinkan diri menulis dan emel kat PQSA.
Huh...ade banyak bende nak buat nih....
ok....dah ngantuk balik.... kena tido....





Wednesday, October 20

my stupid mistake!~

I'm so The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com.

What a stupid mistake! Read the question carefully laa makcik!
When it said "The most significant bit on the left " put laa on the left.
It was written in bold! You are just so careless!
Now what.....?
Supplementary again??
(SCREAMING INSIDE!)
I really wanna scream out loud now~!
And I really really mean it!!!~~
(sigh...)

sabar laa fazz.....

Tuesday, October 19

" Sometimes life gets better when we less expected it to be.
Good things happened when we least expected it to come. "
" Dont worry, be happy "


Monday, October 18

We have no life??

Seriously...
I'm talking bout IT student.
The lab has been my second house nowadays.
The keyboard has been my pillow.
It's a routine.
10 minutes walk to the lab.
Sleep for an hour after 15 minutes of viewing the screen.
What a tiring day and yet i still have to go to the lab.
Sometimes i even bring the sleeping bag together. (no kidding!)
Well i was'nt alone....still there are people staying up late at night finishing up all the works.
But i never really ended up sleeping all nite at the lab.
The most will be at 2 am.

Am i missing something in life here?
I need a break...
life just getting harder...
and yet i'm still at the same level...
not progressing...
not really trying my best, did i?
Am i choosing the right thing here?
Complicated huh...
I' m sick and tired of all this...




Friday, October 15

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak

Currently Listening to: Melodi Bersama ~ Amar
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

Ucapan khas utk semua muslimin dan muslimat di seluruh dunia.
Selamat menyambut bulan yang mulia ini dengan memperbanyakkan amal ibadat.
Dengan ini diisytiharkan di bumi Brisbane , esok kita puasa!

*Next week....
  • Prac exam 3,
  • Assignment INFS3202 DUE,
  • Project COMP2302 DUE,
  • Assignment 5 COMP2500 DUE.
* Exam COMP2502 pada 15 Nov telah ditukar masa kepada jam 8 pagi! Kalau la raya on that day, rasa cam nak nangis!




Thursday, October 14

Serabut aaah...

Tak habis2. One after another. Penat aa camni.
Tu la pasal fazz.....lain kali buat aa awal2.
Jangan procrastinate. Procrastinate lagi....memang aa...tabiat tu mmg takleh nak ilangkan.

Bukan aku sajer nak procrastinate aa...dah aku takde mood nak buat lagi...bukan salah aku aa...

banyak aa bukan ko nyer salah...dah tu salah saper lagik?? takkan salah rabit ker salwa ker...keje ko salah ko aa....nak salahkan org lain plak...
sendirik pemalas ...ader masa lapang gi buat benda tak berpekdah...saper suruh...
pegi lecture, tido dalam lecture...
balik bilik, lunch makan cam tapir...kenyang giler sampai tak larat nak jalan...
malam gi lab konon nak siap kan keje... skali bantai tido kat lab plak...
adoi laa...aper nak jadik nih ha!

mak aih...banyak btol perangai tak elok aku nih...waaa...tolong aaa

takde saper bleh tolong ko fazz...melainkan diri ko sendirik...
sedar aa wahai fazz...

okk....so skrg ape patut aku buat?

erm...publishkan entry ko yg ni, pastu abeskan assignment yg ko nak kena antar esok nih...

oh...ha ah...btul la...baiklah...aku stop sini...bubye


**entry ni drpd fazz dan kata hatinyer yg tercetus ketika di lab

Friday, October 8

Banyak nyer!!!

Another 2 weeks before SWOTVAC and my schedule is still full with test, assignments, project and prac exam....huhh....I'm more worried with all this rather than the exams...

11 Nov Oct - COMP2302- Class Test 2
13 Nov Oct- COMP2502- Assignment 2 due
14 Nov Oct- INFS3202- Prac 9 due
15 Nov Oct- COMP2500- Assignment 4 due
20 Nov Oct- COMP2302- Prac Exam 3
21 Nov Oct- INFS3202- Assignment due
25 Nov Oct-COMP2302- Project due
29 Nov Oct- COMP2500- Assignment 5 due

*tak tahan...berturut2 giler...

Thursday, October 7

usah dikesali...

I failed the prac exam again...the same thing happened...
huhuh...
so what's next??
kita tunggu dan lihat....eh, kena berusaha jugak kut...
Mari kita belajar bersunguh-sungguh lagik!~

Tetapi disebalik kegelapan di hari yg cerah ini...
ade juga perkara yg menggembirakan.

Presentation tute kedua berjaya dipresent!!~
Prac 8 pun berjaya di assesed!

Selepas ni banyak lagi assignment dan projek menanti untuk dihabiskan.
Bahang nak exam semakin membara, kemalasan pulak semakin menjadi2, asyik nak tido jer. Tido dlm lecture tak yah citer la, dah selalu sangat. Malam pulak asyik nak tido awal jer. Stamina tak kuat...oksigen tak cukup dlm otak....walaa...

tak lama lagi nak masuk bulan puasa....alhamdulillah dah abes qada' puasa.
Cuaca semakin panas sekarang. Walaupun baru nak masuk spring, tapi matahari memancar mengalahkan summer! Bila tiba summer nanti cemaner laa kan??
Cehh, macam tak pnah jer rasa summer kat sini, tapi...mmg tak pnah pun, kira awal2 summer ader ler. Itu pun dah cukup panas, apertah lagi kalo cuti summer yg 3 bulan tuh. Nasib baik balik mesia, tak lari kemane nyer summer tuh, kat mesia tetap panas...tapi ader hujan...heheh...

Sekarang ni aku tgh nak memperbetulkan mindset aku slama ni.
Selalu sangat nak fikirkan hal2 yg sememangnyer dah ditentukan Allah.
Nak passed exam laa, tak nak failed prac exam laa...
padahal usaha bukan banyak mana pun...
tapi mmg susah, kita dari kecik dah diajar bahwa bende2 yg elok , bagus semuanyer cam lulus dgn cemerlang, kira semua bende yg positif.
Tapi ader kah kalo failed dan tak lulus tu maksudnyer tak bagus??
Tak kan?
Sebab Allah dah aturkan setiap perkara yg berlaku tu adalah dari Allah, yg mana maksudnyer, itu lah yg terbaik utk kita. Tak kira la kita gagal atau pun lulus.
Tapi, kita tak boleh plak sebab rasa cam semua dah Allah tentukan, kita malas plak nak buat aper2...
Sebenarnyer Allah suruh kita berusaha jugak, cuma jangan fikirkan natijah nyer. Itu kerja Allah. Tugas kita berusaha, bertakwa, berdoa.
Apa2 yg Allah beri, kita redha. Yakin bahawa itu yg terbaik utk kita.
Redha tu plak maksudnyer menerima dgn penuh gembira!
Selama ni slalu guna redha dgn nada yg sedih...cth nyer cam...
"Alaa...failed lagik.."
"Takper la...redha jer laa" dgn nada dan reaksi muka yg sedey cam nak nangis.
Tak happy langsung.
Tapi itu laa realiti manusia skrg, tapi kalo dah tau tu, makna nyer kena laa berubah. Kita tak bleh nak berburuk sangka pada Allah, Dia yg mencipta kita, Dia yg Maha Berkuasa, maka Dia tahu apa yg terbaik dan yang buruk utk kita.
Saper laa sgt kita ni nak mempersoalkannyer kan....

Hrm...banyak plak aku tulis pasal failed dlm entry hari nih...adekah aku pun masih tak bleh nak get over it lagi?? Ya Allah, jauhkan laaa mende2 ni dari fikiran dan perasaan aku....







Wednesday, October 6

Khas utk wanita...

Dapat from Friendster, cam best...

Wahai wanita, anda adalah perhiasan. Dunia ini
menjadi indah kerana adanya anda yg bernama
wanita. Tanpa anda dunia pasti diselubungi sugul.
Para lelaki yg mendiami bumi ini akan
ketandusan kasih. Dunia pasti tidak menarik untuk
didiami. Rasanya dunia akan penuh dengan
kekejaman dan perbuatan2 ‘sampai hati’ sesama
sendiri

Wahai wanita, anda ibarat rama-rama yg
mengindahkan lagi alam. Anda telah
menyempurnakan keindahan bunga. Sempurnalah
keindahan apabila bunga dikitari sang rama-
rama. Namun anda yg bernama wanita, mengapa
ramai sekali yg sengaja merosakkan diri di
tengah2 kebuasan lelaki.



Memang keinginan untuk berteman fitrah insan,
tapi tak usah mangsakan diri anda untuk lelaki yg
kurang perasaan. Tamsilkanlah diri anda
sebagaimana rama-rama. Keindahan anda
mudah terlerai sebagaimana mudahnya rama-
rama terlerai daripada keindahannya apabila ia
disentuh.

Tatkala rama-rama sudah hilang keindahan, tiada
siapa akan pedulikannya lagi. Memang ramai
wanita berasa bangga apabila ia digilai ramai
lelaki. Tapi wahai wanita, sayap anda yg indah itu
pasti luntur sedikit demi sedikit, melekat dijari
lelaki tatkala dia menyentuh anda, sebagaimana
sayap rama-rama berpindah coraknya kejari anda
tatkala anda menyentuh serangga yg kecil itu.

Apakah anda tidak berasa rugi? Apakah anda
tidak berasa apa2 yg hilang?

Jika anda seorang wanita sejati, anda patut
berasa rugi sebab ketahuilah, lelaki amat
berbangga sekaliapabila dia dapat meletakkan
tangannya keatas tubuh anda sedangkan dia tahu,
dia tidak berhak berbuat begitu. Bezanya lelaki
dengan wanita, lelaki tidak kehilangan apa2 biar
berapa ramai wanita yg berada disekelilingnya,
tapi anda pasti rugi setiap kali ada tangan2 yg
tidak berhak hinggap di tubuh anda.

Hanya dengan sekali sentuh corak rama-rama
sudah boleh musnah, kalau dua kali sentuh
mungkin seluruh coraknya tiada, kalau tiga kali
sentuh tidak mustahil sayap yg asalnya indah itu
terkoyak. Jatuhlah sang rama-rama diatas tanah
tanpa siapa mempedulikannya lagi.

Lihatlah kehidupan dari sudut yg begini. Agar
dengan itu anda dapat memelihara diri daripada
menjadi habuan sang lelaki yg hanya ingin
mencalitkan noda keatas diri anda. Apa
untungnya digilai dan diminati, kemudian
berkorban sesuatu apabila ditagih atau diragut
dengan kasar, kemudian anda ditinggalkan pergi.
Di manakah nilai anda setelah jatuh ke tanah dan
kedua2 belah sayap anda telah tiada.

Wahai wanita, kasihilah diri anda dengan
menjadikan diri anda berharga. Nilai anda tentu
terletak pada harga diri yg hanya sanggup dibayar
oleh seorang lelaki dengan harga kejujuran.
Apalah ertinya digilai kalau yg menggilai hanya
lelaki yg tidak tahu diri.

Anda sama sekali tidak berharga biarpun tinggi
nilainya di mata lelaki yg tahunya melihat anda
sebagai ‘alat’. Tapi anda ibarat mutiara dipuncak
bukit di mata seorang lelaki yg jujur. Memang
sukar sedikit untuk mencari mereka. Biar terlewat,
sebab bersikap pemilih daripada tersalah pilih.
Lelaki terbaik tidak mudah ditemui di mana2. Dia
satu dalam seribu. Sudah tentu untuk mencarinya
payah. Itu lebih baik daripada bertemu insan yg
salah, sudahnya hanya mencemarkan hidup anda.

Biar hidup sendiri dan selesa membina pahala
daripada hidup berdua tetapi menjadi pencetus
dosa ke neraka. Biar hidup seorang dan
berenang menuju TUHAN dengan selesa dan
bahagia, daripada hidup berdua dan merasakan
diri masih menggoda untuk semua. Biar hidup
sendiri dan masih kekal serinya daripada
dikelilingi lelaki tetapi telah hilang maruah diri.
Biar lambat bertemu jodoh tetapi tinggi peribadi
daripada cepat jodohnya tetapi tidak lama
ditinggalkan pergi.

Biar menjadi rama-rama dengan sayapnya yg
terang dan indah daripada sang kelkatu yg
menerjah api.
WAHAI WANITA, HARGA DIRI ANDA, ANDA YG MENENTUKAN…

Saturday, October 2

Kestatikan blog yg melampau.

Currently Listening to: Islami Ya Quds ~ Shoutul Harokah

The last entry was on the September 20th. And today is the 2nd Oct.

Reflecting all the things that happened for the past few weeks.
Too much ...
Too many ...
Too long for me to blog it out ...

It wasn't all that...
It was something that is more valuable than money.
It was something that I might not get anywhere, not even at home.
I learned more about friendship, Ukhuwah in sisterhood.
I learned the real meaning of life, specifically the purpose why we are here.
I learned about the reality of the world now.
And now I realized that each of us had one big responsibility in this world.

I used to regret why I came here at the first place.
But these few weeks, I really feel lucky to be here more than any other places.
Felt really lucky to be the chosen one to learn about the truth.
In the Al-Quran, it said that we might dislike a thing that is good for us and likes the thing that is bad for us. Well, Allah knows the Best. Who are we to judge Him?

I learned so many things.
My eyes are wide-opened.
Realizing the reality of people nowadays, make me think so much.
Things that are sometimes we always misunderstood.
Thinking about the past, about how shallow was I back then.
Hopefully, the things that I learned this few weeks will lead me to be a better person.
To be a good Muslimah.
Insya Allah.

I need to learn more.
I need people to assist me.
To guide me, coz I'm only human.
I may forget, so remind me always.

Enough said, the trip to the North Stradbroke Island was just great.
All the sisters were really helpful.
One of the great trip after Midginbil.

Straddie alone are such a beautiful island.
Subhanallah…no words other than that to describe it.
Far way from the hassle of the Brisbane city.
Forgetting all the busy and hectic life in Uni.
Releasing our mind away from all those assignments and exams.

Looking far beyond the sea.
The feeling of Greatness of Allah was wholly shown
We were lucky enough to experienced the chilly strong wind
And the pretty star shining at night,
Praising Him under all circumstances.
It's more than an experience.
Hopefully there will be another chance.
Which only Him knows when.

I'll end my entry for today here.
Jazakallahu khairan kathira.


Monday, September 20

I just realized...

Something that I just realized.
I might not be the bestest friend around.
I'm so ignorant sometime.
I'm so sad that sometimes I did'nt feel what they feel.

I just realized.
All the friends that I knew my whole life ,
I did'nt know where they are right now.
I did'nt hear anything from them.

I just realized.
they come and they go.
Eventhough I still remember them,
I still recognize them,
they always had left their footsteps in my heart.

I just realized.
I once had a best friend.
But then she left me alone.
She made a hole in my heart.
It's so big, I just can't cover it all.

I just realized.
Are we friends for any purpose?
Are we friends just for the sake of time?
Whatever the reason,
my love for you will aways be there,
it's all because of Allah.

I just realized.
I'm so sorry my friend.
Sorry for not realizing the value of friendship.
Sorry for not being there at your hardest time.
Sorry for just being only at your sweetest time.

I just realized.
I have to appreciate all my friends rite now.
They changed me a lot.
To a better me.
Sorry again for my ignorance,
I'll try to be more than just a friend.
from the bottom of my heart
fazzanilzafrun

Friday, September 17

Cinta & Suka

Di hadapan orang yang kita cinta,
hati kita akan berdegup kencang...
Tapi di depan orang yang kita suka,
hati kita akan gembira...
Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
musim sentiasa berbunga-bunga...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
musim itu cuma berangin sahaja...
Jikalau kita lihat di dalam mata orang yang kita cinta,
kita akan kaku...
Tapi jikalau kita melihat ke dalam mata orang yang kita suka,
kita akan tersenyum...
Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
lidah kelu untuk berkata-kata...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
lidah bebas berkata apa sahaja...
Di depan orang yang kita cinta,
kita menjadi malu...
Di depan orang yang kita suka,
kita akan tunjukkan imej yang sebenar...
Kita tidak boleh merenung mata orang yang kita cinta...
Tepi kita selalu merenung mata orang yang kita suka...
Bila orang yang kita cinta menangis,
kita akan turut menangis...
Bila orang yang kita suka menangis,
kita akan turut membuat dia gembira...
Perasaan cinta bermula dari mata,
Perasaan suka bermula dari telinga...
Jadi, jikalau kita berhenti menyukai seseorang yang kita suka...
Umpama kita membuang telinga kita
Tapi jika kita cuba menutup mata
Cinta berubah menjadi airmata
Setiap orang yang akan mengalami ini dalam hidup mereka,
Cuma fikirkanlah bersama-sama siapa yang anda cinta?.
Tetapi, hakikatnya?
Cinta kepada Allah swt Adalah lebih hakiki dan abadi?
Kasih sayang-Mu Tuhan,
Itu yg kudambakan...
Dgn rahmat-Mu,
Ampunilah dosaku...

Sunday, September 12

Exam vs Raya

The draft for the final exam timetable is out

Here are the dates:

8 Nov COMP2302 S1
15 Nov COMP2502 S2 RAYA
19 Nov COMP2500 S4
20 Nov INFS3202 S1

Okay....from the dates given, there are so many points that i would like to point out.
  1. Exam week starts on the 8th Nov. My first paper starts at 8th Nov. And lucky enough, it's the first session!The conclusion here is: My first paper is on the first session of the first day of the first week of the exam week!
  2. Raya will probably be on the 14th or 15th Nov. My second paper is on the 15th Nov on the second session. The conclusion here is: What conclusion!? I dont want to celebrate RAYA while doing Exam on the same day! Uwaaa!!~
  3. The third paper will be on the 19th Nov. So, I've got about three days to revise before the exam day. The conclusion here is: Nothing to conclude, I'm happy with it!
  4. Exam week ends on the 20th Nov. My last paper is on the 20th Nov. And lucky enough, it's on the first session! So, i've got a day to pack my stuff and do all the moving out thing. The conclusion here is: My last paper is on the first session of the last day of the last week of the exam week! And the next day I'm goin back to MALAYSIA!~ It's been 4 times in a row, I finished my last paper on the last day of the exam week.

Is it too early to be thinking of all these?? I dont know why, but i think that the time is running too fast. I just realized that 3 months of studying is never enough! I wished I could go back to the old school days where we have a year to study.....I missed the old school days.... Hopefully I'll manage to cover all my studies before the exam.....

Another thing, this year gonna be my first time celebrating RAYA far away from home, far away from my family, just cant imagined the feeling of how it will be... Perhaps it will be fine....at least an experience for once in a lifetime. I'm still going back after that....so no worries rite.

Thursday, September 9

here comes update!~

A week of no entry , now i'm back.
Had been busy working on the assignments.
This week has been the most tiring week ever.
Finally, had it all submitted yesterday, Alhamdulillah!

I've been sleeping while in lectures nowadays.
I mean this week.
I just can't recall any lecture that i did'nt fall asleep.
I'm trying to find the reason why?
Is it because it's an early morning lecture?(Kul 8 ader, kul 9 pun....awal tuh...)
Or maybe i've taken too much food during breakfast?(Roti tuna...jus..hash brown potatoes)
Or maybe the lectures are too boring. (Programming stuff that i'm not interested at)
Or I did'nt get enough sleep? (duhh...dah la slalu tido awal~)
I woke up quite early in the morning with a high spirit to go to uni and learn...
but in the end, it's not even passed a quarter of the hour yet, I had fall asleep.
Am i not getting enough oxygen in my brain or what??
Anybody with a good advice on how not to fall asleep in lectures,
can you please help me?
I cant go on like this, it will affect my studies....
I dont want it to get worse...
any solution to it???

Enough of that.

I've done something funny this evening.
Well, i was supposed to get my Prac assesed today.
Yupp, I did go for it.
It's just that, I just managed to get only my Prac 4 assesed, not Prac 5.
So, i was so "cuak" coz I did'nt get the Prac 5 done at that time.
It was like another 6 to 7 minutes before the prac session ended,
and I was still "terkial2" doing it.
And then I saw my tutor goin out already.
And with all my 'kelam-kabutness', i went after him!
And actually the lawak part is....
he''s only going to the toilet....
waaaa....i actually screamed out his name "Mr R*****! Can I....Ooh.."
"I'm comin back again dear...." he said while pushing the toilet door...
cehhhhh.....hampesss!
I wanna ask whether I can still get my Prac assesed by tomorrow morning....
Aaah....i'm so mengelabah maaa.....

So tonight, i'll have to go to the lab again and finish up the last task....
And tomorrow....I really wanna eat Nandos....anybody wanna join??
Jomm!!~

* end of today's ramble *

p/s = Fazz is so menggelabah sometimes rite!?~

Thursday, September 2

comin up!~

Currently Listening to: Sway ~ Michael Buble

Important Due dates:
COMP2500 : 8 Sept
COMP2500 : 8 Sept
Prac 4 & 5 : 10 Sept

Special dates:
Extravaganza event : 4 Sept jeng...jeng...jeng

Current success:
Passed COMP2302 Prac Exam

Current failure:
Asymptotic Analysis???

Quote of the day:
Mind and screen, Both are blanks.










Friday, August 27

2 things that i've done yesterday.

one...presentation tute.
yupp..i presented it. Well, thank God that it was an easy topic. And Anthony was cool. He always acted cool before this. It' s just me that think that he was'nt. Why? Because he is the lecturer, and I'm in one of his tutorial session. What the hell la i'm thinking, choosing a tutorial where the lecturer are the tutor. I know that it is good, but i have this feelin that all lecturers are scary....but yesterday had just proves me wrong. Glad to be in one of his tute. But i would probably think he is scary again when it comes to the presentation part again.

two...prac 1,2,3 done.
I had had my prac all assessed yesterday. Felt really happy and relieved. I'm really tired doing all the javascript, debugging and stuff... Just can't stand the way Rakesh smiled when my program isn't running the way it should. Oh please la....tell me what should i do. I know i have to change something, but change what??!!~~ . It was actually just a small tiny problem. Then finally the third time i called him to assessed mine, and yes. He finally said "Hrm, Good. You Finally had it all done". Wahaaa.... By that time, i felt like i'm gonna have a fever. My brain just cannot think anymore, i felt like something spinning in my head....That is what happened when u sit in front of computer doing Java or in this case, Javascript, for a long time.

The dinner at Cromwell was suck yesterday. Come on la...how can you said that "someone" actually had accidentally put some bacon in the meal? And you expect us to just eat the veges for the dinner? Tak nak! I need real food! We finally make ourselves Sambal ikan bilis and eat it with rice rite after that. Sorry girls. I though that i'm gonna cook last nite but then i felt asleep....u girls had done a good job. Well, u gals know laa rite....me and cooking is soooo out. Malas...eheh...but last nite i seriously felt asleep.....pening btol! Bangun2 jer..korang dah masak kan....

Ahdoi....I'm having stomach ache since yesterday. A bug in my stomach?? Delma told me just now. Cause the people in Hancock was having the same thing after they ate. I cant stand it last nite, so i took some panadol soluble and felt asleep after that. Really enjoyed myself with the "soluble"...huuhh...perisa Lemon.

I just realized this morning that I forgot to go to a lecture yesterday. I totally forgot!
It was actually at the time when i was doing the Revision after the morning lecture. That explained why i felt really weird....like why i have so much time in the morning like this...cause usually i dont. It was just an hour lecture, I hope i dont missed much about it. At least i'm doing something....rather than not.

Coming up next week is Prac Exam for COMP2302. I'm quite worried bout this actually, i am so bad in using the wire with the breadboard....always confused which wire goes with the toggle switch and the LED. I'm still not clear with it. Even when i asked the tutor, they does'nt seem to make me really understand. Ugghh...what's happening to me! Need to do more revision and preparation......

I have to stop now....sakit perut nih.....later!~
\(*0*)/

Tuesday, August 24

hari ni....selasa

I'm hungry.
I hate the fact that i could never get to eat lunch on Tuesday anymore.
It's all because of the two hours lecture that took all my lunch time on Tuesday.
Tuesday's lunch are the best.
Tuna and egg mayo sandwich. (What! just that?)
Well, you should try if u dont believe me.
Every Tuesday we'll be having formal dinner. That's why we get sandwiches for lunch.
It is not the normal sandwich, the bread is long and big...kenyang wa cakap lu....
It's like every week i'll be waiting to eat that.
But no more this semester, thanks to my two hours lecture again....

But i did pack my lunch today...
but...it's just not enough....

Tonight we'll be having Academic Dinner.
So sad that no one from us will be up there receiving .
Too bad for us.....we just have to work harder....
cause it's just getting harder year by year....
i hope the dinner tonite will be great...
once in a semester....it should be!

I just realized that i've got 2 assignments due on the same day next week.
What should i do now?
Which one should i do first?
Have'nt figure it out yet.
Lots of thing to cover in a little time.

Lately I'm having 'sakit sakit badan'
Have been doing some aerobic in the morning.
A great way to start the day.
It's good though especially for me who is so lazy to do exercise.
But the pain and stuff, just have to bare with it.
Tu la malas lagi nak exercise.....

Solat jemaah Subuh and Isyak.
Tazkirah and penyampaian hadis.
Alhamdulillah terbukak sket mata dan otak.
Untuk beriman sejenak.
Selain tu merapatkan ukhuwah.
Dan yg paling penting, ingat mengingati sesama kita.
Hidup di dunia ni hanya sementara, carilah keredhaanNya.
Semoga istiqamah sentiasa.
Jaga diri hiasi peribadi.(pinjam Raqaiq punya :P)

Ewah...cam pantun plak...





Friday, August 20

kembali tersenyum

Currently Listening to:
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

naper aku tersenyum??
soalan yg bagus...! (senyum lagi nih (^o^)/ )
baru-baru ni adelah berita mengejut mengenai seorg sahabat yang hendak membina masjid tak lama lagi.
Yupp....mereka nak kawin!!
Kami kat sini sangat sangat laaa tumpang gembiranyer di atas berita gumbira itu.
Tahniah.....semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir ayat.

lagi satu berita gembira!
Ammar ngan Wawa nak kahwin jugak!
Sesaper yg kenal mereka, silalah cepat baca latest episode of radha sekarang jugak.
I personally thought that this was the sweetest episode ever....sangat comelll!~~
Jugak rasa happy for Syah and Kaduk.
Mungkin citer ni nak abes dah.
But still i am so happy with the ending rite now.
Hrm...masih tersenyum.....heheh...
\(^0^)/




Thursday, August 19

perut ku berbunyi dalam lab td...

Hehe....malunyer....tapi takper....
Alhamdulillah...tinggal lagi sehari jer lagi nak ganti puasa...
Sekarang bulan Rejab, di samping ganti puasa bleh gak niat puasa sunat...

important dates
Assignment 1 COMP2500 20 August esok!
Class Test 1 COMP2302 23 August
Prac 1,2,3 INFS3202 26 August





Monday, August 16

kemuliaan bulan Rejab

Sabda Nabi s.a.w.:
"Hendaklah kamu memuliakan bulan Rejab, nescaya Allah muliakan kamu dengan seribu kemuliaan di hari kiamat..."

Sabda Nabi s.a.w.:
"Bulan Rejab Bulan Allah, Bulan Sya'aban bulanku & bulan Ramadhan bulan umatku..."

Kemuliaan Rejab dengan malam ISRAK MIKRAJnya.
Sya'aban dengan malam NISFUnya.
Ramadhan dengan LAILATUL-QADARnya.

REJAB bulan menabur benih.
SYA'ABAN bulan menyiram tanaman.
RAMADHAN bulan menuai.

REJAB menyucikan badannya.
SYA'ABAN menyucikan hatinya.
RAMADHAN menyucikan rohnya.

REJAB bulan taubat.
SYA'ABAN bulan muhibbah.
RAMADHAN dilimpahi pahala amalan

Sunday, August 15

nah....amik nih

Currently Listening to: Tipah Tertipu ~ Ruffedge
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

Latest update...i'm gonna cramped it all in one here..

Final AF2
eventhough i did'nt watch the final concert last nite, the result was quite surprising for me . It's not as what i'd expected, apart of Zahid came out as the grand prize winner, well... he's talented, so that's fine. But sometimes I really think that he always do this 'curi moment' thing at other's performance. Sometimes geram giler.....mcm sajer nak meng'famous'kan diri....seb baik dia mmg berbakat...kunun2 comel laa tuh.....

Okk...back to the point, I can't believed that Kaer did'nt even get into top 3! Why!!!~~ Dan Adam dapat plak tuh??? oK, maybe Linda bagus la....but Adam?? Well, he does really know how to dance....i think maybe that's a credit for him to sang Ooh la la....

UQMSA opening 2nd sem BBQ
Went to the event yesterday at Roma Street Parkland. Hehe...mengimabau kenangan manis masa time Foundation year dulu....kat Spring Hill....Love those moments....was one of the best time ever....Roma Street laa tempat melepak, tempat persinggahan, tempat laluan ke City....missed it so much....

Mynn's 20th Birthday
After Ekka, made a big surprise party for Mynn....a girls party just for our birthday girl! Quite happening eventhough everyone was quite tired....(Hellloww, kat EKKA from 1 pm until 8 pm). Mas, rab and leen was incharged for the preparation esp. the food(superb), invitation(ramai datang kan!) and also the cleaning part...(i did some too!)
While they took care of that, me and Salwa took the most important and very difficult task which is to make Mynn forget about her birthday(susahnyerrr!!~~)....enjoying ourselves at Ekka, spinning our head off with the Claw ride.

EKKA '04
It was pretty the same as the first time we went there. But more rides though. Dont really know which rides to take... All the rides look dangerous for me...hehe....penakut gaks...I love rides! But once is enough for me....
The Claw ride was a much alike the Wipe Out at Dreamworld. Pening laa....And seriously i felt like cam nak terlepas jer when they swing us around and let us hanging from the above. Surely I didn't open up my eyes, did'nt dare to.... But i did screamed my lung out really hard!!!~ sampai dah tak larat nak jerit at the end....wekk...rasa nak muntah...

The showbag pavilion was so crowded with people buying stuff. I'm proud of myself cause did'nt spend so much money for Ekka this year. I remembered the forst time we went to Ekka during Foundation year.....jakun kut kitorg at that time, spent so much for chocolates, snacks.....abes berpuluh2 dolar gak laa....giler aaa...well, at that time, tgh banyak duit laaa katakan....skrg ni....tgk jer laa dari jauh....Did'nt buy anything this year...bagus!

We missed the Pig show! By the time we arrived at the place, the show ended. Kejap nyerr! But we had actually look at this big 'bapak' pig kut...giler nyer besar....eek...

I did'nt play any games though....walaupun cam best jer tgk diorg menang bear2 yg besar tuh...rasa cam takkan menang jer kalo main...cam membazir duit jer...so....taknak...

COMP25202 tutorial
Did i ever told u guys bout the algorithm tute? The lecturer itself admit that the tute was a disaster! And the most shocking part is that the tutor had actually quit because of lotsa student had complained about the uneffective tutorial session. Good! The tutor was ours. Now they had make a change to the tute, no more peer assessment. I read one of the posts in the newsgroup where there were actually students who answered "too hard " for the tute question, and his partner had actually write "correct!" for it. Really glad to know that there are other people who felt the same as me and I'm not alone all these while. Arrgh, I have'nt done the tute for this week yet....shoott...

I've said alot for this week rite.....Assignments coming up...I should start doing it now rite....
Till then....chioww...

\(^o^)/

Wednesday, August 11

EKKA....Ekka....

Bangun awal hari ni....
Hari ni cuti tau. Sempena Ekka Day. Adekah satu Brisbane cuti? Aku pun tak pasti....
Semangat plak nak gi Ekka....tapi kena gi cucuk dulu nampaknyer....hehhe

Ok...mari kita refresh balik apa yg kita buat semalam....
sebenarnyer dari semalam lagi nak blogging tp, tak berkesempatan plak.

Ha, baru teringat....semalam ader rasa bengang dan geram....
nak tau kenaper??
Ni semua adelah disebabkan oleh Kevin Bacon (nama sebenar terpaksa dirahsiakan, tapi serious muka cam kevin bacon, huh menakutkan) nih....
seorg lecturer subjek COMP2502.
Sememangnyer subjek ni amatlah menyusahkan, malahan ,membencikan sekali....
Kita memang susah laa nak faham, ader kesengalan sket kalo subjek camni , bese laa, algorithm n data structure.....whutt the???
okk...back to the point....
maka, kita pun dengan berkobar2 nyer pagi tuh, dah beriya nak gi jumpa dia after lecture satu nih.
Maka, pergilah mencari building no 69.
Dalam on the way nak gi sana tuh, terlalu laa kedai buku second hand, ader laa dalam 10 minit kat situ, sempat beli 2 buku lagi tuh...tapi ni bukan cerita dia...
maka, lepas tuh...ntah camner, tetiba ternampak satu muka yg amat familiar dan menakutkan itu....
hek eleh....apehal dia buat kat sini??
Si kevin bacon tuh dan konco2 nyer sedang minum2 kopi plak kat coffee house tepi UQ bookshop...
cesss.....aku dah macam tercegat kat situ cam tak percaya aper dia buat kat situ time consultation dia...
bangang tak....
lalu, aku pun balik dgn perasaan yg geram bercampur baur dgn marah dan rasa cam nak sepak jer bangku kat tepi2 tuh.....
Bukan la aper sangat.....tapi sebenarnyer nak menggambarkan kerisauan yg terlampau dgn subjek ni yg mcm takde harapan jerk....benci nyer.....

Petang pastu, ader praktikal Computer organisation. Second time ni masuk lab electronic. First time hari tuh blaja pasal combinational logic gates. Terkial2 aku ngan rab mencucuk2 wayar kat Breadboard tuh. Satu hape pun tak tau. Dan last2, kitorg laa org terakhir keluar dari lab tuh. Rasa cam tak cukup lak 2 jam.

Semalam plak psl flip-flop. Huh, memula mmg tak faham aa....Lepas dah buat prak, barulah aku faham serba sket. Tapi still tak sempat nak abeskan la plak. Kena sambung lain hari. Penat 2 jam kat lab tuh.

Semalam baru kitorg sempat nengok konsert AF yg ke 8. Huhu...lambat sket laa kitorg kat sini...Ingat senang ker nak dapat tgk... Org sini walaupun jauh, tapi demam dia still ader, tak cayer tanya Huda! Tapi, yang pastinyer, setelah menilai suara2 mereka, kami sebulat suara mengatakan yg mereka ni lebih berbakat daripada bebudak AF yg dulu tuh. Betul tak? Nama2 yg menjadi sebutan skrg...Zahid, Kaer, Farah, dan Bob. Yang lain tak power sangat, ok laa. Bak kata rabit, suam2 kuku laa...tak pun, comel la...

Dah aaa...penat plak nak mereview hari semalam...
Hari ni Insya allah ader bende best nak buat.....jeng...jeng...jeng...
Tunggu malam sket aaa...
Besok kiter citer lagik....

\(^o^)/




Sunday, August 8

...tersedar...

Listening to : Sendiri ~ Saujana

Alhamdulillah, kebelakangan ni selalu solat subuh dan maghrib berjemaah. Lepas tu pulak ader la sedikit pengisian yang bermanfaat. Bagus rasanyer. Memperingatkan dan diperingati sesama sendiri. Sesetengah orang, kalau orang 'tak push' ke dalam bende2 cam ni, nanti mudah terlalai dalam benda2 yang lagha. Aku la salah seorang nyer. Aku pun dah mula terfikir2 bende2 cam ni. Kemewahan di dunia yg melampau sekarang ni kadangkala kita tak sedar yg kita dah terjebak. Sedey plak bila ingat balik. Jadi, adalah baiknyer kita sama sama saling ingat mengingatkan di antara kita.

Semalam, ada tengok tayangan video klip "Last Breath". Tiba2 rasa keinsafan datang. Tiba2 tersedar yg kita ni bila2 jer Allah boleh ambil nyawa kita. Tak kisah la masa main bola ker, masa tgh jalan gi uni ker, masa tgh dinner ker. Pendek kata biler2 laa. Semua orang ader tarikh dan waktu mereka sendiri, cuma kita tak tau biler. Alhamdulillah pagi ni masih bleh bangun dan solat subuh lagi.

Insya allah, semoga sentiasa beristiqamah kita semua.

Rasa sedih skrg dengar lagu ni - Sendiri ~ Saujana

Terasa tersisih sendiri di pinggir sana
Kau tiada lagi di sampingku,
berbicara menyalakan api
Tika kau di sampingku tuturmu kuanggap bisu
Tingkahmu untukku sumbang bagi diriku
Harapanmu padaku tidak ku endahkan
Nasihatmu madu penyembuh luka
Pabila bersamamu hilang dukaku
Lewat kusedari nilai cintamu
Pabila kau tiada lagi disisiku
Belaianmu kini masih terasa
Restu darimu membawa ku ke syurga
Lewat kusedari nilai cintamu
Pabila kau tiada lagi di sisiku
Andai dapat ku kembali,
mengubah yang terjadi
Pasti takkan ku ulangi,
walau hanya sekali
Namun hanya do'a yang bisa, ku kirimkan

Ku kan cuba tempuh hidup sendiri
Kerana kita kan, kerna kita kan akhirnya sendiri


Monday, August 2

latest pics!

Currently Listening to: Ceria ~ Alarm Me

Yes! Scholar dah masuk......
  1. UQConnect *check
  2. Priceline *check
  3. Woolies *check
  4. Vodafone recharge *check
  5. UQ bookshop *oops

I've uploaded some of the pics from latest BBQ event...
click here....BBQ oh BBQ....

\(^o^)/

Sunday, August 1

Thursday, July 29

soalan cepukmas...

To Mr Aziz........

  1. biler allowance nak masuk yer?
  2. kenaper allowance tak masuk lagi?
  3. lambat lagi ker allowance nak masuk?
  4. tak bleh masukkan esok ker?
  5. cemaner nak beli UQconnect kalo allowance tak masuk lagi?

hah...jawab laaa.....

Wednesday, July 28

What i want now....

  1. UQ download quota
  2. UQConnect download quota
  3. download quota laaaaaa!!~

Seriously in need of it than any other thing....

Sunday, July 25

Last day huh....

Yes it is!
Today is the last day....i'm not joking...even i can't believe it myself....
Tomorrow's gonna be a new start, a new semester...
I should be thinking about a new  me...
Always been thinking about that at the very start of every new semester, but really can't get it all through at all the time....

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Wednesday, July 21

Nasib laa laboo...

Sorry sangat, nampaknyer hajat nak update pasal trip gi NZ hari tuh terpaksa dipostpone kan lagi,sebab download quota dah abes. Semua dah siap except for pics to be upload. Baru nak buat semalam sekali download quota dah exhausted.  Sekarang ni pun dalam library. check mail.
 
Met the academic advisor just now, just to discuss bout my study plan. Hrm, really have to think hard about my problem now. I seriously dont wanna make the same mistake again.
 
Gonna start 2nd semester next week. Another pretty tough semester to go through again...
I wonder i'll survive or not.... 

Monday, July 19

Here comes the update...

Currently Listening to: Sendiri ~ Saujana
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

sorry for not updating the blog for a while...
not really in a mood of blogging...
spend the week mostly with girlfriends...
girls nite out and movie nite through out the week...
still in the mood of lepaking ....

Woke up real early this morning...
went to Mt Cootha to see the sunrise....
It was my second time witnessing the God's creation...
'betapa agungnya....Tuhan....'
went together with Salwa, Rab, k yanti n her friend,k ainul from Sydney...
we almost got frost bite....giler sejuk...tangan serius dah jadik numb...

I'm still doing my winter break update...
It'll be up soon...together with the pics...
and some more latest pics...
just wait...!
\(*o*)/**

Tuesday, July 13

back in action

allo people!
i'm back!
got off the plane a bit early than we'd expected.
New Zealand was superb, just really cant explained what we had seen.
The scenery is really beautiful that i just can't put it into words.
Seriously you have to go and see it yourself to get the picture.

Our trip was a success, we could say that.
Not bad for begginners like us.
First experience of backpacking, everythings gone smooth and easy for us despite of some obstacles at the start. But , yeah...we managed to get over it....

I'm still thinking of how am i gonna tell u guys about our fascinating stories and experiences backpacking from the South Island to the North Island in two weeks. It was truly an experience to us...but it was worth it...really!

Same goes for the pics...lotsa pics that i really wanna share with all of u. Hrmm...i'll come up with something sooner or later...

Really felt glad being back here in Brissy again...really missed everyone so much...

but....
Something really bugging me now...
Suddenly i felt like i need to be alone for a while...
got some serious stuff need to be think of...
really really serious...
my 'worst nightmare' had come true...
i'm so over....damn...
ohh....now i felt useless and hopeless...
i'm so......'blank'....
i need help seriously.....
HELP ME!


Tuesday, June 29

*statik*

this blog gonna be static for 2 weeks, i'm goin to NZ in just a few hours after this.Do rop me messages while i'm gone. I'll catch up with ya guys later after the trip!

Enjoy holidays everyone!

Friday, June 25

Currently Listening to: Look what u've done ~ Jet
Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

Mata tak ngantuk sangat dah lepas Subuh tadi
segar sket, semalam tido awal la kata kan....
Penat menelaah beberapa malam yg lepas tak abes lagik
entah ape2 jer yg aku blaja pun
yg lepas biar laa lepas
aku dah tak leh nak wat aper pun dah
tawakal dan redha
apa2 yg baik dtg daripada Allah
dan yg buruk tu , aku sendiri yg cari pasal
macam yg kawan Rabit kata
"Allah always plan something beautiful for us, It's you who make it bad"
So skrg ni baik fokus kat last paper ni
JAPN1010 EXAM esok 26 June 2004
pukul 2:30 pm kat UQCentre Lecture Hall

malam ni nampaknyer bersengkang mata lagi....
seronok btul tgk member2 yg dah abes exam...
rabit sampai tak tau nak wat aper dah lepas abes exam semalam,
ili dah packing nak balik mesia,
hari ni hampir salwa dgn semua bdak engin abes paper...
tahniah ye korang....
tinggal la kitorg yg amik paper japn nih...
hari terakhir laaa nampak nyer nak enjoy pun...
takpe...
malam abes exam nanti ader party!
hehe..actually a farewell party for k zila n k jas.
sorg nak balik mesia, sorg lagi nak gi canada plak.
Girls nite....sambil makan ayam nandos
waah...tak sabar plak....
erk...aku tak abes study for japn lagik...
banyak sangat la plak nak kena baca....
baiklah!
aku kena start skrg
nanti menyesal plak
aku cuma ader hari ni dan beberapa jam esok sblm exam....
gambatte kudasai fazz-san!!
p(^o^)q

erm...braper kali dah aku dok bukak peti ais kat sebelah ni
sampai abes Coklat Dove aku nih....

Who knows
what could happened
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One things true
there's always a brand new day...


Thursday, June 17

ada apa dengan esok...?!

Mood: The current mood of fazzanilzafrun at www.imood.com

Esok lah bermulanyer hari pertama aku start exam.
esok adelah hari Jumaat 18 Jun 2004.
Paper pertama adelah INFS2200.
Waktu exam adelah 11:15 am.
Tempat exam adelah di Gymnasium, Connel Building.
Barang yg perlu dibawa adelah alat-tulis, student card dan otak.
Jangan lupe baca Bismillah.
Malam ni tido awal sket.
Hrm...tu je kut...

Ganbatte kudasai fazz-san! q(^o^)p

Tuesday, June 15

countdown exam: 3 days!

Currently Listening to: Take Me Away ~ Avril Lavigne

Hari ni officially start exam utk bebudak UQ.


G.O.O.D L.U.C.K K.O.R.A.N.G !


walaupun belum start paper lagi, aku plak yg sakit perut hari nih...
slalu mmg camtu, before test, exam presentation.....macam2 rasa...
sakit perut, nak demam, nak muntah...semua ader...
tapi alangkah leganyer bila dah abes kan...
rasa cam "alahai...takde la susah sgt".
tapi itu kalo yg senang laa...
kalo susah "aarrghh...siot aa...susah giler....aaa...mamposs aaa..."
heh....that's me...

biler time exam ni
nak sangat habis cepat tapi nak mengharungi exam tuh...
huih...tak tahan....

Skrg dah makin sejuk...
asyik rasa nak makan jer...
mengumpul lemak...
takut plak biler pikir abes exam nanti nak gi NZ
sana lagi sejuk giler tahap gaban
makk....aku takut sejuk....!!

camner erk...?!

('^_^)?

Sunday, June 13

countdown exam: 6 hari!

Currently Listening to: So Much for My Happy Ending ~ Avril Lavigne

cuba teka aku kat ner?
ekeke...library le...
download quota dah nak abes...uqconnect pun dah abes...
takleh laa nak surf net cam bese kat umah...

hari aku dah start studi jepun sket2...
aku takut tak sempat plak...
sbb jepun 2 hari lepas paper programming...
programming pun kena start jugak ni...
mau menangis aku nanti....
dapat result for tutorial presentation...
alhamdulillah, lepas 15 markah....
tapi 60% utk final tak tau laaa camner...
tgk soklan dia pun dah cam giler tak tau...

aku ader dgr lagu avril yg baru from Album Under My Skin....
ok laa aku rasa....best...dah hafal dah sket lagu2 dia...
ni aku nak rekemen kat korang...
dengar laa yer...

Friday, June 11

Bacalah surah Yaasin

RASULULLAH s.a.w telah bersabda yang bermaksud: "Bacalah surah Yassin
kerana ia mengandungi keberkatan", iaitu:

1. Apabila orang lapar membaca surah Yassin, ia boleh menjadi kenyang.

2. Jika orang tiada pakaian boleh mendapat pakaian.

3. Jika orang belum berkahwin akan mendapat jodoh.

4. Jika dalam ketakutan boleh hilang perasaan takut.

5. Jika terpenjara akan dibebaskan.

6. Jika musafir membacanya, akan mendapat kesenangan apa yang
dilihatnya.

7. Jika tersesat boleh sampai ke tempat yang ditujuinya.

8. Jika dibacakan kepada orang yang telah meninggal dunia, Allah
meringankan
siksanya.

9. Jika orang yang dahaga membacanya, hilang rasa hausnya.

10. Jika dibacakan kepada orang yang sakit, terhindar daripada
penyakitnya.

11. Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: "Sesungguhnya setiap sesuatu mempunyai
hati dan hati al-Quran itu ialah Yassin. Sesiapa membaca surah Yassin,
nescaya Allah menuliskan pahalanya seperti pahala membaca al-Quran sebanyak 10
kali.

12. Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w lagi, "Apabila datang ajal orang yang suka
membaca surah Yassin pada setiap hari, turunlah beberapa malaikat
berbaris bersama Malaikat Maut. Mereka berdoa dan meminta dosanya diampunkan
Allah, menyaksikan ketika mayatnya dimandikan dan turut menyembahyangkan
jenazahnya".

13. Malaikat Maut tidak mahu memaksa mencabut nyawa orang yang suka
membaca Yassin sehingga datang Malaikat Redwan dari syurga membawa minuman
untuknya. Ketika dia meminumnya alangkah nikmat perasaannya dan dimasukkan ke
dalam kubur dengan rasa bahagia dan tidak merasa sakit ketika nyawanya
diambil.

14. Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda selanjutnya: "Sesiapa bersembahyang
sunat dua rakaat pada malam Jumaat, dibaca pada rakaat pertama surah Yassin dan
rakaat kedua Tabaroka, Allah jadikan setiap huruf cahaya dihadapannya pada
hari kemudian dan dia akan menerima suratan amalannya ditangan kanan dan
diberi kesempatan membela 70 orang daripada ahli rumahnya tetapi sesiapa yang
meragui keterangan ini, dia adalah orang-orang yang munafik.

Thursday, June 10

Konnichiwa!!~

Morning everyone!
Masih dalam mood pagi yg ceria walaupun kat luar ni berkabus giler...menunjukkan betapa sejuknyer udara di luar nih...
Akhirnyer tercipta juga sejarah di minggu SWOTVAC di mana aku berjaya bangun utk breakfast!
Dah lama tak breakfast, bangun pun slalu terbabas sampai kul 10 lebeh...
Hari ni, Alhamdulillah......bangun awal....

Semenjak startnyer SWOTVAC nih, aku dah pandai berjinak2 studi kat library...
kiranyer masa yg digunakan kat library lebey effective lagi efficient drpd kat bilik aku yg sememangnyer banyak distraction object...cth terdekat adelah pc, katil, cermin, sikat rambut...etc.

Alhamdulillah sangat, diri aku dah terbuka utk belajar dg rajinnyer.
First time sejak aku masuk uni ni, aku blajar dengan hati yg terbuka, kalo tak asyik rasa cam terpaksa jer....

Baru aku sedar, kalo aku start blaja dari awal lagi mungkin aku tak payah nak susah payah sangat sekarang...2 minggu utk cover satu semester nyer pelajaran...
But better late than never....i'll try my best!
At least aku berusaha jugak, result nyer nanti tawakal ajer laaa....

Ok laa...
sampai sini jer la...nak bersiap gi library ....
akhir kata...sambut lah pagi ni dengan ceria!~~
\(^o^)v Banzai!



Tuesday, June 8

Renungan.....

Seorang lelaki berjalan mundar-mandir di lorong hospital, gelisah akan keadaan isterinya yang akan melahirkan anak sulung mereka.Setelah beberapa jam ia menunggu, tak jua terdengar tangisan bayi.

Tiba-tiba,seorang doktor berjalan tergopoh-gopoh keluar dari ruang persalinan menuju kearahnya.

"Bagaimana keadaannya doktor?" tanyanya penuh harap. "Maaf encik, kami sudah berusaha, keadaannya amat kritikal. Si ibu sudah tak sedarkan diri!" jawab doktor itu. "Jadi bagaimana doktor ...?" "Kami tak mungkin dan berupaya untuk menyelamatkan keduanya, tapi masih ada harapan. Kami hanya punya satu pilihan, menyelamatkan si ibu, atau menyelamatkan si bayi!"

Lelaki tersebut kebingungan, dan tak dapat berkata-kata.......

"Maaf encik, setiap saat amat berharga, tolong cepat untuk membuat pilihan!" desak doktor itu. Akhirnya, dengan berat hati lelaki itupun berkata dengan
nada sayu, "Doktor, saya sangat bingung ... Saya serahkan sepenuhnya kepada doktor. Tolong lakukan yang terbaik!" pintanya. Doktor pun bergegas kembali ke ruang persalinan. Nampaknya dia sudah berpengalaman menangani masalah darurat atau kritikal seperti ini. Dan dia tahu apa yang harus dilakukannya.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------


Ini adalah salah satu contoh, bagaimana keyakinan beragama boleh mempengaruhi keputusan disaat genting. Bagi seorang doktor beragama kristian/katolik, ia akan berusaha menyelamatkan si anak, dan mengorbankan si ibu. Bagi doktor muslim, ia akan berusaha menyelamatkan si ibu, dan mengorbankan si bayi.

Memang benar, dua-duanya adalah pilihan yang sukar, tapi itulah jalan terakhir dan muktamat. Mengapa ia boleh berlaku seperti demikian?

Dalam ajaran kristian, setiap manusia yang lahir sudah membawa dosa, doktrin ini dikenal dengan "dosa waris" atau "dosa asal". Manusia yang lahir sudah menanggung dosa Nabi Adam dan Hawa. Untuk menebusnya ia harus mengikuti seorang penyelamat yakni penebus dosa (Ketua Paderi atau Pope). Doktor Kristian itu akan berjuang sedaya upaya untuk menyelamatkan si anak, agar dia dapat lahir dengan sihat dan selamat walaupun sebaliknya terpaksa mengorbankan si ibu . Doktor berharap, setelah anak itu lahir ia akan mendapat kesempatan untuk dibaptiskan, untuk tujuan menebus dosanya. Jika si anak meninggal sebelum dibaptiskan, anak itu akan masuk neraka. Sebab, dosanya belum sempat ditebus.

Dalam ajaran Islam, setiap manusia lahir dalam keadaan fitrah/suci. Doktor muslim akan berjuang menyelamatkan si ibu, kerana dia tidak bimbang yang bayi akan masuk neraka. Dengan terselamatkannya si ibu, insyaAllah setelah sihat kembali akan dikurniai kekuatan untuk mengandung lagi dan mudah-mudahan mendapatkan ganti yang lebih baik, yang lebih soleh. Sedangkan anak yang tak sempat terselamatkan, biarlah ia kembali kepada Allah dalam keadaan suci. Mungkin lebih baik sekiranya bayi itu tidak dilahirkan di dunia yang penuh tipu daya ini agar hidupnya kelak tidak menjadi orang yang tersesat.

Demikianlah, dalam keadaan serba salah lelaki itu tak sempat untuk memastikan agama doktor tadi. Dan ia sudah berserah sepenuhnya kepada doktor itu. Di dunia ini ada banyak agama dan kepercayaan. Pemahaman kita terhadap ajaran agama yang kita anut, akan menentukan jalan hidup kita. Itu sebabnya amat penting bagi kita orang Islam menentukan yang bakal menerima kelahiran anak kita adalah seorang doktor muslim.

Sejak bangun tidur, kita sudah dihadapkan kepada pilihan.
1. Meneruskan tidur, atau bangun sholat subuh?
2. Untuk lunch dahulu, atau sholat zohor dahulu?
3. Setelah habis kerja, adakah terus pulang ke rumah, atau singgah ke gerai kopi/disco dahulu?
4. Ikut terlibat melakukan pecah amanah, atau dimusuhi rakan sekerja?
5. Menyegerakan berkahwin, atau menundanya dulu?
6. Hidup mulia di sisi Allah, atau mulia dalam pandangan manusia?
7. Dan banyak lagi.....

Kita akan sering dihadapkan pada pilihan-pilihan yang lebih sukar, dan melibatkan akibat atau natijah yang sangat ditakuti.

Kesimpulannya perbanyakkanlah muhasabah diri dan tambahkan ilmu dengan majlis² ILMU. Mudah²an selamat kita semua di dunia & di akhirat. Amiin.

Wassalam.

Sunday, June 6

I'm Lovin It....

Yes! I've done the 1st module for INFS2200...thx to Salwa, berjaya mengajak aku gi Library...hehe...malas slalunyer gi lib...

Waa..who's interested to go to Justin Timberlake Lovin' It LIVE concert??
It's on the 19th June Saturday at Brisbane Convention Centre, the ticket price is $133.10 for both general admission and reserved seating...
Wanna go actually, but looking at the ticket price...hrmm...made me think twice...erm...
Wa...takai desune?
If it is below 100 bucks, for surely i'll go. It's on a day after my first paper...so...ok la kut...

I have to save money for the NZ trip, if not it would'nt be a problem...

huh...should'nt be thinking bout this aite?
Okk...concentrate more on studies....exam Fazz...ingat tuh...
Benkyooshimashoo minasan....
Ganbatte kudasai ne!

q(^o^)p


Saturday, June 5

S.W.O.T.V.A.C !!~

ha...dah start dah...
tak lama jer lagi nak exam dah....
kalo start kira from tomorrow, tepat 2 minggu lagi jer for my first paper.
so...dlm masa 2 minggu jer ni, kena laa pulun sungguh2...
final sem ni agak berat aa jugak...
subjek programming ...huh..tak tahan..
baru lepas tgk pass paper dia, giler tak faham aaa...
pelik nyer...cam tak pnah blaja...lain jer drpd latihan tutorial semua...

aarrgghh...

aku baru jer buat template nih...
fresh giler...pg td nyer keje...bgn awal buat mende nih, bukan nak blaja ker mende...
tensen sket semalam...
bad luck rasanyer...
ade ker aku bleh terjatuh smlm...
jatuh kat tgh jalan raya plak tuh masa nak melintas...
bengong aper aku maser tuh...
ker kasut tuh kan...
haritu pun jatuh pakai kasut tu gaks...
malu jer...terpaksa buat muka tebal masa ader cab lalu kat tepi...
cam s**l...
benci nyer gi ingat balik....

kawan2 ku....
aku perlukan kata2 semangat...
untuk teruskan perjuangan...
melawan kemalasan aku nih..
dan menyahut seruan exam tak lama lagik...

Ya Allah...bantu laa aku menghadapi semua ni
Amin...

Wednesday, June 2

R.e.L.e.V.@.N.k.@.H.@.K.u.D.i.H.@T.i.M.u

*sigh*
aku mmg tgh takde keje btol nih...
eventho sebenar2nyer still ader assignment blum submit lagi...
dlm tgh mencari solution utk assignment tuh..
tangan ni sgt la gatal nyer....
sempat lagi surf the net...
suka btul blog-hopping to others blog...
and terjumpa this blog...
which is an online-novel blog...
waaa.....ni yg seronok nih...
kisah cinta remaja, dari zaman skolah sampai laa ke zaman uni dan seterusnye...
hrm..ingat nak abeskan assignment dulu baru nak start baca novel tuh..
but, mmg tak tahan aa...
so...today, ended up baca novel tu sampai abes..
baru lepas baca ni...
waa...best...

ni yg nak rekemen kat korg ni...
kalo korg layan laa citer2 camni...
Relevankah aku di hatimu
then sambungan kat sini plak
Relevankah aku di hatimu 2

citer ni bleh kata citer sebenar...tu yg best..
baca laa korang k!

Tuesday, June 1

Somebody help me please....
I just dont know how to do this...
blank giler....
benci nyerrr!!!~~
Assignment 5 ni sgt susah ker???
apsal nampak cam senang tp....
tak tau nak buat???
aku sgt benci kalo jadik camni...
uhh....nak termuntah....

Monday, May 31

The Tea Cup

I like this...
got it from an email...
Check out the Moral part especially...

There was a couple who used to go to England to shop
in the beautiful stores. They both liked antiques and
pottery and especially teacups. This was their
twenty-fifth wedding anniversary. One day in this
beautiful shop they saw a beautiful teacup. They said,
"May we see that? We've never seen one quite so
beautiful." As the lady handed it to them, suddenly
the teacup spoke.
"You don't understand," it said. "I haven't always
been a teacup. There was a time when I was red and I
was clay. My master took me and rolled me and patted
me over and over and I yelled out, 'Let me alone', but
he only smiled, 'Not yet.'
"Then I was placed on a spinning wheel," the teacup
said, "and suddenly I was spun around and around and
around. Stop it! I'm getting dizzy! I screamed. But
the master only nodded and said,'Not yet.'
Then he put me in the oven. I never felt such heat. I
wondered why he wanted to burn me, and I yelled and
knocked at the door. I could see him through the
opening and I could read his lips as he shook his
head, 'Not yet.'
Finally the door opened, he put me on the shelf, and I
began to cool. 'There, that's better', I said. And he
brushed and painted me all over. The fumes were
horrible. I thought I would gag. 'Stop it, stop it!' I
cried. He only nodded, 'Not yet.'
Then suddenly he put me back into the oven, not like
the first one. This was twice as hot and I knew I
would suffocate. I begged. I pleaded. I screamed. I
cried. All the time I could see him through the
opening nodding his head saying, 'Not yet.'
Then I knew there wasn't any hope. I would never make
it. I was ready to give up. But the door opened and he
took me out and placed me on the shelf. One hour later
he handed me a mirror and I couldn't believe it was
me. It's beautiful. I'm beautiful.'
'I want you to remember, then,' he said, 'I know it
hurts to be rolled and patted, but if I had left you
alone, you would have dried up. I know it made you
dizzy to spin around on the wheel, but if I had
stopped, you would have crumbled. I knew it hurt and
was hot and disagreeable in the oven, but if I hadn't
put you there, you would have cracked. I know the
fumes were bad when I brushed and painted you all
over, but if I hadn't done that, you never would have
hardened; you would not have had any colour in your
life. And if I hadn't put you back in that second
oven, you wouldn't survive for very long because the
hardness would not have held. Now you are a finished
product. You are what I had in mind when I first began
with you'.

MORAL: "Allah" knows what He's doing for all of us. He
is the potter, and we are His clay. He will mold us
and make us, so that we may be made into a flawless
piece of work to fulfill His good, pleasing, and
perfect will.