All in One

Finally, i have the courage to update my lovely blog. My baby aka My PC had just been returned to me after few days being repaired. Seems like the motherboard had gone 'gaga' since March and i've been hanging on by using Acik's PC as she left it in my room due to the nearest internet network cable for our daily dosage of internet facilities eg.Facebook, YM, email etc....

I have yet to write the story of my life now, how the changes of job position had turned me into somehow a more relaxed person. Will share with all sooner or later....

Last week, i was away for an outstation to Sabah. My first trip ever to Sabah bah~
Not much time to explore around eventho its a 4 days trip where i spent 2 nights at Lahad Datu, and 1 night at Kota Kinabalu.

Contacted my Brissy Junior, Dila who is now working in KK. And she had courteously showed me around, thank God it's Saturday! It was quite a rushing tour as my flight back to KL was in the evening at 4 pm. However, we managed to go to a few places starting at 7 o'clock in the morning!

• 7am - Photoshoot at Waterfront Explanade
  
• 9am - Shopping at Pasar Filipina near waterfront (Lotsa women accessories made out of pearls etc.... my personal advice: please bring more cash, there's a lot of shops and varieties of items to look for)
  
• 11:30 am - Sabah Museum (Photoshoot in Taman Warisan
• 1pm - Admiring Sutera Harbour Resort sceneries (Hoping for a photoshoot, but then my dgcam was out of batt)
• 2pm - Refresh at Dila's place
• 3.15pm - Back to the KK Airport
  

Mind you, the weather was quite hot! And unfortunately for me, since first day i arrived at KK and Lahad Datu, i was having skin allergy due to wearing mask during flight.... oouch... and it gets worse because i was out in the sun and near the sea/beaches....

My personal opinion bout KK, "Well, not bad~" And surely, there is life there... its' quite small but a one happening town. So, perhaps for a transfer....why not KK? Not that i'm asking tho, but just give it a thought....



I arrived KL at 7:30pm on Saturday, and guess what? The next early morning, me and my family had to rush to Tronoh for Acik's convo! Departed from home at 4:30am and arrived as early at 8am... We stopped for half an hour in Tapah for Subuh, breakfast and makeup! I slept almost all the way to Tronoh, penat kut...

So, Acik's finally graduated! Congratulations! I was there as a sister, and also her Second Photographer, coz Nuyue was appointed Official Photographer, since she borrowed Fadh's DSLR. Anyways. i'm happy with my PnS digicam, coz pics taken were all outdoors and my dgcam had really functioned well and nice!

For more of her glorious day's pic, please browse tru her Facebook.... penuh muke dia...

And, as a result of the excitement of Acik's convo day, to reminiscing my previous glorious days (which i think was about 3 years ago....) i too took some memorable pics. And this one i like most!

Credit: drool

Seeing with eyes closed!

Gotta wake up!

Clock is ticking!

Latest addition to life happily ever after...
Congrats to Awoi n Syamil~

Hot and Cold

I just received my 'bestest' birthday present this year!

I really really like it!

Now, please drool over it.... heheh...



Ok...that was the fun part for today.....

I know i haven't been updating my blog for quite some time.
Have been busy and also ran out of idea on what to blog.

Life seems normal, or maybe boring to others since nothing exciting is happening.

Perhaps today, i felt a bit different.
We have a meeting this morning.
I actually feel sad and sorry for myself.

No, i dont really know how to describe the feeling, actually.
It's all mixed up with all sorta feeling.

I felt a sudden sad, angry, anxious, panic, shocked, terrified.
And it was a horrible picture when people start to notice it from my face.
I was so bad in hiding my emotions when it comes to situation like this.
It's like so obvious....
But that is not the problem.

Yeah, i agreed. I have my own weaknesses.
My own worst nightmare.

But the thing that i hate the most is,
I'M SCARED.

Of everything, to move on, to try on.
I dont know what is holding me back.

I believed that everyone around me is sick of it already.

Ah, can i change?
Can i move on?

Can i do this?

Change me please!

No more drama!

A girl met a guy. Fell in love. Then, shit happens. Broke up. The guy got back to the old GF. The girl devastated.

And now, nobody should neither talk, laugh, smile, nor even look at the guy at all.

Why?

"Because he broke my heart! And as a fren, i want you guys to support me by not giving any type of contact to him "

"That's ridiculous"

"But you are my fren! My Good/Best fren!"

"Frens dont do that! Frens are supposed to give advice, share your tears and laughter."

"But, dont u see what he's done to me? He is capable to do that to you too!"

"Do what? Fine, he broke ur heart. But i'm not stupid to fall into that trap or whatever. All we do is being professional. What do u expect? He is in the same department. We work together. That's all"

"But i dont like to see my good/best frens hanging around him, laughing, giggling making social contact. It just breaks my heart to see that"

"Well, it breaks my heart that u dont trust us. We have nothing against him. But we understand your predicament. It is so sad to see that u are not over it yet as what we have been advising!"

"Fine, i dont wanna talk to u guys anymore!"

"Good, cause i'm sick and tired with all your soapy drama of spreading the hate!"

Honestly, can you tolerate this?

I may understand that u probably couldnt forgive him or forget what he had
done. Well, we felt bad for you. But, u cant control people to do things that they dont want. It is unfair. That is not the way to handle this.

And, when you play with your Frenship card, as though ur frens are being insensitive to you. That is just too much. We are being rational while u are being emotional.

Now that it is so overated, i cant take it anymore. Just go do whatever u want. Because after all of this, your hateness are just pushing your frens away. And, i think, i'm better off without psychomelodramatic people around me.

If you ask what i'll do if i'm in your shoes, guess what?

I'll never ever ask my bestest frens to spread the hate. Why? If everyone spreading the hate, then, there will be no more love in the world. And i know, people need that more than the crazy ridiculous hate feeling!

I'm signing off.

P/s : Disebabkan ini, jiwa kacau....takleh tido....ciss...