Wednesday, December 28

I'm back in my house finally..
Got myself a new room to myself now..
But still, the kids really like my room, they just like hang out in my room..shuhh..
I'm still waiting for all my stuff that i send by Jetta to arrive..
actually...i want my PC..
all my harta karun is in there...
and fighting for one laptop in the house is so not my favour now...

Btw,
what's my feeling now?
I still cant believe that i'm actually back home and will not be comin back to brizzy anymore..
sad...
the truth is:
I miss Brissy so much!
it's not that i hate M'sia or wut..
it's just that , Brissy is like a home to me...
i dont feel like i'm home now!!

And while i'm looking surrounding me is so not "healthy"...
'sigh'
reality....that i need to face this time...
just have to come out of my comfort zone for now...
gotta be strong coz i know i'm weak...
this is just the beginning...

a reminder to me:

Do people think that they will be left alone because they say;
"We believed", and will not be tested.

29:2


I throw stones at my eyes’cause for way too long
they’ve been dry

Plus they see what they shouldn’t from oppressed
babies to thighs

I throw stones at my tongue’cause it should really
keep its peace

I throw stones at my feet’cause they stray and lead
to defeat

A couple of big ones at my heart’cause the thing is
freezing cold

But my nafs is still alive and kicking unstoppable
and on a roll

I throw bricks at the devil so I’ll be sure to hit
him

But first at the man in the mirror so I can chase
out the venom


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